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To the one who has my heart,
My heart was dreading the arrival of this day. And unlucky me, it arrived so quickly. Today a part of me walked away from my life forever. Just to let "you" know...you have my heart. Please take care of it. Its true that we can't have everything in life but I would trade anything to get what I had... back. There was no fight, no betrayal, no cheating, no abusing. But we parted ways. Why? I would never know I guess. It felt like someone pulled my heart right out and kept squishing it.
In those few moments I spent with you.. I think I lived a thousand lifetimes. How will I ever get over this? The fact is that I don't wanna get over this. I have this hope that maybe just maybe someday our paths will meet again. How is one expected to live when the soul walks away from the body? You came into my life like a gush of wind that eventually turned into sand which started to drift away from the palms of my hands. And look at me, I couldn't do anything. I let it all slip away.
You said you're going away but in reality no one ever really goes anywhere. He/she stays with us for as long as we live. I will never ever forget you. You will be in my said as well as unsaid prayers. You said you loved me more than you loved anyone else in your life. Then why didn't you let me hold your hand and walk with you?? You let go and walked away because you don't want to take me down with you but what if I wanna go down with you?
How would you have felt if I had pushed you away like this? I am not angry. I am just wondering. Was it not worth it that you let it all go just like that? I guess I will never know.
My prayers, best wishes and all my thoughts are with you. You will get better. I don't care if you decide to not include me in your life when that happens but I will still love you. Like I always have. As a friend, as a soul mate, as a lover. I don't want to give what we had a label because I won't be able to. Its heart breaking enough already.
You said our paths don't meet but from where I am looking they do. They so do. But you won't see it because maybe from where you're looking.. the view is too foggy. As I said I am not letting go. Because I can't. Its too sacred for me. So I will protect your memory with my life.
I want you to know that I will walk somewhere in your shadow with you. Sometimes as a friend, sometimes as a lover, sometimes as a wish, sometimes as a hope and sometimes as a memory. You can put the labels according to whatever suits your situation best at that moment. My point is that in my absence I will be present.
Yesterday was a great day. I had everything. And today you walked away from my life. Because you have your reasons. Today you built a fence between us and I have to accept that now I belong on the other side. Perhaps I always belonged on this side and only today I found out. I want to wish you all the best for your future. Thank you for standing by me when life was undone. Thanks for holding my hand and pulling me out of my scariest night mare yet.
I want you to know that someday when you're having the worst day at work, when life is upside down, when you are not feeling well and when you're angry at everyone around you...just close your eyes and tell yourself that there is this silly girl somewhere in this world who will always love you for who and what you are. You will be the last thought on her mind when she hits the sack and first thought when she wakes up in the morning. That's where you'll stand in her life.
Forever...Hamesha...
We have some really fond memories behind us. With us. I know my whole life is ahead of me. I know I will meet new people. Make new friends. But I just want you to know that you will always walk next to me somewhere in my shadow :). And just to let you know that if the time had come where we needed to fight the world then believe me I would have held your hand but my love you have a conflict with yourself and unfortunately there's nothing I can do except to love you unconditionally.
Just to let you know, the windows are open. And the doors will never be closed. And no locks would be changed if you know what I mean :).
I am sorry if I ever hurt your feelings. I know it won't do any good now but I still am sorry.
With love that is deeper than
any ocean.
From my heart to yours.
Sirf tumhari
Issh...
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Posted by TwilightFairy on 2009-11-03 09:46:13 | Rating: | Views: 12
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