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There are times one wishes their brain was somehow connected to the computer, so it can download every thought.... for my fingers are too slow to keep up....
At other times.....one wishes he/she can write every thought that begs to be let out of our brains....and yet one does not feel 'safe' in doing so....
Sometimes I wish I could fly away from here.... and visit certain people I would like to visit... because I think being with them will make me feel at peace....then again maybe its those little lies/ dreams we keep hidden inside are the ones we drift into.. during 'our lives'... in order to stay sane....
I am not sure which is better... or less painful.. having no imagination.. or having too much imagination...only to be slapped everyday by reality.. which tells you.. NO you cannot live your dreams... you are not even close...
I would like to live another kind of life.... if I may permit myself to talk this way for a few minutes... knowing that I am way better off than so many others.. and I should not complain...
But I was built this way... we yern for a certain other life... which to us is peacful.... and maybe happy...
I dont feel like a .... I feel like a soldier... who is here to protect...
which is in my other thought process a noble thing.. soemthing worth the sacrifice....
I know it to be a good thing.... it follows the code...
But oh God is it hard.... and lonely......
you survive on crumbs of humanity.....
or maybe its my fault.. I am not doing it properly... others are doing similar things and they are doing ok..... or is it teh same...
I dont know ..
I know everything is relative...
so we cant really judge...
I just wish I had a different life....
I can leave now... but it wouldnt be the right thing..
I just had another call from one of the people I am supposed to be helping... the ones who also drive me nuts...and yet if I leave.. no one else will help them...its a double sided blade...
you help them.. you protect them .. and they hurt you.. :)
oh well .. at least soemtimes they do try...
sometimes they try...
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Posted by Traveler on 2007-08-31 12:55:47 | Rating: | Views: 145
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Microsoft has an interactive software program where you talk to your computer and it talks back too. It will print out everything you say. If you make a mistake or syntax error you can tell it to back up and correct the problem. I will look for a free trial application and see how easy it is to use.
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Posted by penumbra88
on 2007-08-31 14:16:13
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Good stuff T. Please give us some life advice on my blog. Thanks! :)
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Posted by Paul_ic7
on 2007-08-31 17:53:24
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Traveler,
I know what you mean, as I have had many of these same thoughts. I'm sure you will be glad to hear that I am infact getting a new pup. My father and I are going on a little road trip this weekend to go pick him up. Although i can never replace my beloved pet, Skeeter (his name) I feel i need to have someone there. Thanks again for keeping in tough and your kind words mean alot.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutaa
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Posted by pure_life411
on 2007-08-31 22:38:35
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Mister Anderson...
(I feel like agent smith) :)
thank you for suggesting that.. is it the same program Jif mentioned.... Dragon 9?
That would be great...
I always wanted to do the star trek thingi...LOL.. cant wait to install that at work..hahaahahaaa
yes pleeeeeeeeeez if you find it... I would be ever so grateful :)
wanna scare a few engineers at work.. hahahahahaaaa....
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Jif...
we already discussed this in email :)
thanks again for your support...
although when I read your comment..this morning... the idea that I bared my soul to the internet scared the bejeezus out of me .. lol
aaaaand... now there is so much pressure to write soemthing interesting.. that you wont yawn to... well I am sorry.. I will continue to write boring stuff probably :) and when I get depressed again.. and melancholy.. that will be your lucky day.. LOLOLOL
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Paul...
eekk.. I am not sure if I am equipped to give 'life advice' to people.. dont you usually need people who are successful in life and happy to do that? I am still struggeling.. as you can see :)
I saw your blog... and to be quite honest.. if I write soemthing from the hart.. then it is usually in an answer to someone in trouble or who needs help... I dont function well just to sit down and blab things .. without an immediate reason... if I do then it wont be from the hart... :)
I hope that makes sense :)
But you are too kind to think so well of my writing...thank you...
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Ellie my dear...
glad you are getting a new pup... maybe we can see his picture soon?
pleeeeeeeeeez :)
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Posted by Traveler
on 2007-09-01 12:11:41
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