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Its tough being different

So I just went and visited a bunch of ladies today.. and bored them to death

Why? well I am the quiet type...I can crack jokes here and there.. but they are mostly in english... and they fit a different mentality of people... INSANE people like meeeeee

these were nice old ladies.. or nice mothers.. and their kids...
and uhh,... I have nothing in common with them...

They miunderstood a few things about them... and when you start to explain.. they start getting suspicious that you are just patching up a story...hmmm.. so like yeh whatever...
fine go ahead then misunderstand me...

but on the whole they are nice ladies.. but waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay off in the distance from my way of thinking...
then again so are 90% of women I met...ok.. maybe 85% .............I'll be nice....

the problem is not them.. the problem is ME .. because I Am different.. its hard to fit in...
not that I want to fit in.... I already know its impossible... but even simple things as conversations... and 'girl talk' and freindship.. and bla bla bla... all that girly womenly stuff... I dont have that...
I dont know how to gossip... I dont go around blurting what happened to this person or the next.. exposing people...

people love to do that.. for them its like eating chocolate ... well I could easily do that.. but it would break the code..

and to be quiet honest here... and this is hard to admit...
me .. not being happy in my life.. shows.. no matter how much you smile and laugh...
I am not a good actress...
well I can pull it off for a few minutes here and there.. pretending to be normal....but not for a bloody 1.5 hours...

its devistating to sense what they are feeling.... when they notice it...
but that is me... I wish it wasnt... I wish I was happy.. or normal like other people.. but I am not....
so there..... I have other qualities which compensate :)

there that is my confession for tonight...
maybe it will help so that I dont feel bad about it...

I'll let you know if it works :)

Posted by Traveler on 2007-08-26 13:37:14 | Rating:

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		we are all different. nobody is really "normal" and you certainly dont want to go bad talking people behind there backs so no worries traveler. you are alright!
Posted by jason on 2007-08-26 16:40:06


		Why thank you.. you guys are amazingly supportive.... :) People around you must be very lucky indeed... I like that.. WE ARE BEING SUCKED INTO A VORTEX CAPTAIN!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAA hehe... :) tis very true... yes... and wow.. thank you for such beautiful words.... you are too kind... very kind indeed... kinda reminds you of the matrix eh? :)
Posted by Traveler on 2007-08-27 06:09:51


		LOL... oh shoot you are testing my memory? I cant even remember what I had for breakfast yesterday.. :) uuummm I'd say the RED..... (and I just saw it the other day too) hope I got it right... :)
Posted by Traveler on 2007-08-27 12:58:17


		LOL.. good one.... I seem to do that I guess...
Posted by Traveler on 2007-08-28 09:55:07


		I can identify. I have all these friendly acquaintances, but no close friends that I just call up or they call me up. Oh. And I'm with you. I don't like gossip either. I don't mind mentioning happy, positive things about people like their accomplishments,new babies, or weddings, but I don't like to criticize or expose anyone either.
Posted by tumblingafter on 2007-08-29 10:37:46


		Thanks my dear... :) its on one hand nice to know that I am not the only one who feels like an alien :) but on the other hand... I am still sorry you have to go thru it too... although you are such a hilarious woman..lol... I cant imagine WHY!! people are weeeeeeeird :)
Posted by Traveler on 2007-08-29 12:39:44