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not much today...
I indulged myself ... I ate certain kind of food that I have been missing for a while....
so I crave it no more during Ramadan....
got that out of the way...
felt bad for paying alot for the meal...
today we had a visit from a man who frequents the area... and people give him things or money to help him..... and to him the simplist things you give.. which you no longer need are a wonderful thing.. he can either use them or sell them...
I saw him when he left... as I was stepping out... he stood and was looking inside the bag...
that sight alone... had an effect on me.. it made me sad...
and then you go indulge yourself in an expensive meal....
I felt like a hypocrate....
granted I dont do this often .. maybe once every few months...
but still....he never gets to do it...
I try to console myself with the "yeh well everybody does it.. its normal.. you can allow yourself that once in a while... its ok"... but that has little effect on me.. in the back of my head I still feel it... even if a thousand people do it.. its still not the pure thing to do... I am supposed to behave different....
I am not very proud of myself today...
I had fun.... somewhat.... but the shadow of guilt was hovering all over me...
its interesting timing for him to show up today....
but then there are no accidents in life... are there...
God is always talking to us.. in any way ..shape.. or form.. available...
but we are not listening...
I am not listening...
me..
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Posted by Traveler on 2007-09-07 15:05:17 | Rating: | Views: 140
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I understand where you are coming from with this guilt thing. But perhaps the important part of your experience is not the guilt you are feeling, but the fact that you recognise that man's need, so I suppose the question is What do we do about others needs. Also how do we do something about others needs without patronising or putting them down.
Because I cannot fast I think I will try not to smoke between sunrise and sunset. I smoke far too much anyway.
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Posted by bede
on 2007-09-08 00:36:09
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JD..... no matter how much you try to help it never feels enough....and realistically it is not enough....alot of people are still going to sleep hungry... or they live in a crappy place... and winter is coming....
I dont think the system here is built in such a way to address the reason,... they just address the symptoms...and then only occasionaly...
in our philosophy.. you are not supposed to go to sleep tgat night,... if your neibour is hungry... if each person followed that.. nobody owuld be hungry.... but 90% of people dont follow it... and Iam one of them becasue i dont even know people in this are I live in..
a new thing here is taht .. people 'fake' needs and they go into begging... tehy discovered rings/ groups of many who do that .. organized by a leader.. its like a business now.. no one tends not to believe everyone... they are getting very creative about it...
Also . once you help someone .. they automatically get greedy.... and start demanding more.. and more often.... some even start telling you new stories everytime so you would give more... so generally speaking it has become a business here... and people now tend to shy away from helping those on the streets... lots of stories to tell about that...
organizations do help those in real need... but they also have had investigations into them for fraud... and stealing...
I .... thus far.. would love to find 1 organization that I fully trust.. that helps the poor here..
anyway.... too many thoughts..
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Posted by Traveler
on 2007-09-08 00:50:51
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Bede.. that is also part of fasting... not smoking :)
I hope I can fast this year too... I might have a few health issues... but we wil see.... hopefully I can.. I really want to...
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Posted by Traveler
on 2007-09-08 00:52:36
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dang those typos....
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Posted by Traveler
on 2007-09-08 00:54:37
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Oh my God...
good thing I checked teh computer.. I was gonna leave without doing that...:)
(I am addicted now)
YES I Am here...for another 5 minutes
hehee
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Posted by Traveler
on 2007-09-08 02:26:09
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you have to create an email account...
hmm I think there is an option when it asks you for an email address.... to register (means to create new one)...
OR....
just open an internet explorer window..
go to www.hotmail.com
create a new user / new email/ register... and then once you are done with that... you can write down the email address you got into the messenger window...
:D
sending you a quick email...on this site
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Posted by Traveler
on 2007-09-08 02:29:00
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