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it seems like I've been here before

After drinking most of the afternoon away, I poured all the beer and soju I had in the house down the drain and decided to make a new bid to live clean. I called my friend who I was going to go out boozing with and said I still felt sick, couldn't go; I felt sorry for letting him down but I'm doing myself a favour. I'd made excuses about why I looked like shit on Friday saying I was sick as I didn't want him to know I'd been up late drinking, so at least my lies were consistent.

I'm trying to follow the five precepts:
avoid the killing of animals
don't take what isn't given to you
be honest
avoid sexual misconduct
don't get high
Once you add daily meditation to this way of life, wow, it opens you to things, you start to 'attain' things, not just understand. Of course, this an ideal for living, very difficult to stick to exactly in practice.

Val will be disappointed. She had been telling me to get out more, that I have no life. But what can I tell her? It just doesn't have the appeal it had 10 years ago. I've partied with the best, partied like a rock star, going out clubbing on drug binges for days at a time. That and the expat scene here is so young and stupid, I have no interest in meeting most of these kids, they're all either fresh out of college kids or US military, not my kind of scene. Add to that I'm trying to stick to the above precepts and I have zero incentive to go out. Sorry Val.