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A lesson from the battle against BP
this lesson is from my struggle with BP. I do not guarantee it applies to anyone else's struggle because I know no one else's specifics besides my own but I think i know mine well enough. My battle against this insidious monster is all about control. I struggle constantly to maintain......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-01 12:11:07 | Rating:

| Views: 168 | Comments: 4 | Tags: Control BP Lessons

5 days after missing my meds
I've been back on the risperdal for 5 days now and am only today coming completely, totally back to how I was before my screw up that caused me to miss a few days. I was actually back about 90% yesterday but today I'm back to feeling normal, gotta clarify that as real normalcy NOT normal for......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-03 19:22:57 | Rating:

| Views: 62 | Comments: 3 | Tags: Another Risperdal Update

Roe - this is for you
Roe - this is for you, it's long. hope it's not too detailed and that it helps your understanding of your friend's problem. OK. 1st and what I think are the most important questions for you. How long did it take me to get here and how did I do it? I think I had this problem long before......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-04 18:21:39 | Rating:

| Views: 90 | Comments: 7 | Tags: my BP story

round and round the mulberry bush
Took a buzz up to the poconos on my bike to visit some freinds this weeked. What a thrill! The bike cruises great even at 100+ mph. No shimmy, nothing but a ride smooth enough that it wss hard if not impossible to keep it down to 85. Every time I looked down I was bumping 105 or more. Got to......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-08 17:21:09 | Rating:

| Views: 78 | Comments: 4 | Tags: dunno any tags you want

Life is good
Nothing particular to this entry, I just haven't posted in a bit and thought I owed an update. I've been doing really well. Had that relatively mild depressive session over the weekend as I was coming home from the poconos and another really mild, and short lived, one yesterday afternoon.......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-12 07:32:32 | Rating:

| Views: 49 | Comments: 2 | Tags: Life with risperdal and BP

Off to the races again
Man let me tell you, the line between love and hate is even thinner then the one between sanity and insanity, And worse, crossing the first inherently means crossing the other. I've had more then enough of this, I just can't take it anymore. I had a rough morning, a semi-manic depressive......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-14 13:33:48 | Rating:

| Views: 88 | Comments: 6 | Tags: Wrong Life sucks

What's needed to get ahead in life?
You may have seen this before, it's paraphrased from a very old email that I had a printout of. We've all heard it before - you need to give more then 100% to get ahead in life! Well what makes 100%? What does it mean to give more then 100%? How about 103%? Well mathematically......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-18 12:25:39 | Rating:

| Views: 49 | Comments: 0 | Tags: mathematical proof

Have you ever, part 2
Have you ever had that curtain Pulled back to show the light. Suddenly the shadow's in retreat And the world's revealed, so bright Have you ever stood there stunned By all the life that you surrounds. Filled with peace and joy, Love of life in you abounds Have you ever felt......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-21 08:48:38 | Rating:

| Views: 150 | Comments: 10 | Tags: poetry

Meditation - a method of relaxation
In this madcap world today I often feel totally overwhelmed with stress. There's always too much to do and not enough time to do it. I cut sleep time in order to be able to finish something, maybe start something else. I'm always pushed for time and always in a rush. In the face of such......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-24 05:37:01 | Rating:

| Views: 48 | Comments: 2 | Tags: meditation relaxation

Another attack of the beast
it's another manic depressive day, mild but still stronger then it's been. I've been spoiled lately, these things are coming fewer and farther between and have been really mild but this one's only moderately mild, maybe even a little stronger then that. Damn, that in itself feeds the......Read More