Hello world. Merry frigging Monday. Wonderful day wasn't it? Not! Monday's are never good days, this one was no exception.
It started with my car this morning. I had a tire that was almost flat so I had to stop and put air in it. Now I guess I need to get a tire. About time anyway, I really need 4 tires.
The day went downhill from there. First I'm working on a small project that involves a vendor FTP'ing a file into a secure company website, The I'm supposed to pick the file up from there for further processing. No brainer right? At least my half works out fine. I tested it and it was all set to go. But the vendor can't get to the FTP site. Mind you I don't support the FTP site, I only use it. It's supported by the powers that be and is supposedly visible to anyone over the internet. Anyone that is except my vendor. And since I'm behind the firewall in work I can't test it from outside. Now I'm stuck in the middle of a he said she said battle between the vendor and our corporate security people who manange the FTP site. I want to step back and let them talk to each other but neither side will talk to anyone but me. I think I'm going to test it from home tonight. That should tell me what's up.
That wrapped up my morning. My afternoon was spent dealing with what I assumed was a brain dead user. Well you know what they say about assume don't you? It makes an a$$ outta u and me. Well this got to that point. We were exchanging increasingly heated emails, me asking him for info regarding his request, him explaining to me it was already there. Well I looked and looked again and I didn't see it. I was to the point where I was going to call my boss, explain what was going on and why I couldn't do the user's request. Well God smiled on me and made me deide to give the user a call because after doing so it turned out the info was indeed in his original request. Problem was I was looking at an update to his request which only contained corrections to his original request. Boy, did I feel like an AHole as I apologized profusely. PICNIC you know? Problem in chair not in computer. Talk about brain dead users, how about brain dead support techs?
Well I was improving. Or so I thought. I honestly thought I was doing better yesterday but today I'm really not. My wife's not home, I have no idea where she is, she didn't take anything out for dinner so I'm down to a pot pie and a couple of hot dogs. I'm not mentally or emotionally prepared to be alone. I'm frigging depressed still and just can't goddamn stand it anymore! Add to that it's only 20 mins of 5 and it's getting dark already. I frigging hate this time of the year. Damn it all, I hate everything and everybody right now. I hate life, most of all I hate this goddamn life. They're talking freeze warnings before the week is out and I hate that too! Man I am in a mood let me tell you. I haven't been in a mood this full of anger in I don't know how long. I'm seething, ready to boil over. Probably a good thing my wife's not home. Dunno where all of this anger comes from. I need to go find a tree to rip out of the ground or a brick wall to punch. Anything to burn this anger up.
Well let me go find some way to vent this anger before I kill myself or someone else.
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