I knew it, I knew it, life was just begining to be too good to be true! I found an under-the-table-job, I am getting things all set for early enrollment into Georgia NorthWestern College for Medical Technology, as a Medical Sonographer, volunteering at both the Human Society and Red Cross, just found out tthat my town that I am living in, in Georgia has a GLBT Group, just started getting my unemployment checks. Things were really starting to look up for me and I was very happy about it all!
BUT THAN.....
My Mom called me to tell me that I HAVE A COURT HEARING TO GO TO BACK HOME, BECAUSE MY JOB DOES NOT WANT TO PAY ME UNEMPLOYMENT ANY MORE...
uhg I am sooo mad right now!!! I cant believe it!!! My stupid ass bosses and their company are putting me such bullshit!!! First I had gone 3 months with out any form of income, and now this! Ahhh!!! Grrr....
I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO THE HEARING, CAUSE I AM SO FEED-UP WITH THE WHOLE RING-AROUND!!! I just want to say "fuck it, fuck you! If this is what makes you happy, makes you able to sleep at night, than whatever, go for it! I'll get me a job and get my Associates degree in Medical Technology. as a Medical Sonographer, than come go back there and throw it in their faces. My Mom understands why I feel this way, but my grama does not....She says that she WILL LOOSE A LOT OF RESPECT FOR ME IF I DONT GO AND STAND UP FOR MYSELF & LET THEM WALK ALL OVER ME....I mean I understand why she is saying this, but than again I really do not want to go and be put through more stupid ass bullshit! You know? Yet at the same time I KNOW I NEED TO STAND UP FOR MYSLF AND SHOW THEM THAT JUST CAUSE I HAVE A SPEECH IMPEDEMENT AND LEARNING DISABILITY, THEY CAN NOT TREAT ME LIKE SHIT, I WONT LET THEM....Uhg I just do not know what to do....All I know is that I am soooo mad and upset right now it is not even funny!!!
And to make matters worse my MOM HAS TO GO BACK TO WORK NOVEMBER 2ND, AFTER GETTING SURGERY DONE ON HER SPINE IN OCTOBER....I am sooo mad about it, I dont want her going back to work yet, its too soon!!! She needs to stay home and rest up!!! I was planning on sending them money, this month too, to help them out but no my stupid ass job has to pull this shit!!!
GRRR I AM SOOO NOT HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!
Well its 4:04 am and I am going to go to sleep now....So good night and sweet dreams to all...
xox Samatha xox
PS...Note to self: GO ON A RUN TOMORROW!!! YOU KNOW YOU NEED IT TO HELP CLEAR YOUR MIND AND SO FORTH....I AM GOING TO DO IT!!!
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