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| Sleep, Linkin Park and Halloween! |
Uhg I do not know what is wrong with me, this past week I have been staying up till the wee hours of the early am, and sleeping in so late...I hate it! No really all week long I have been up till 3 am or later, than not waking up till 11:00 pm or later... And last night I went to bed at 3:00 am and didnt wake up till 12:00 pm...I think about it and it is really only 9 hours of sleep, which on average everyone should be getting 8-9 hours of sleep a night so its really not that much. It just feels like it to me because I am used to going on 6 hours or less of sleep, even as a baby everyone used to say I never slept...Maybe my body is just trying to catch up on lack of sleep over the past 22 years of my life, this week. Hahah. All I know is I hate it! I hate it cause it makes me feel lazy, like I do nothing but sleep, which is so not like me at all! Tonight I am going to try and go to sleep no later than 12:00 am, and than get up at 8:00 am and go on a 3 mile run, than get ready for my volunteering job at HomeMart for 11:00 am till 1:00 pm.
So Friday I have this "Halloween for YMCA", thing that I am going to help out with at 2:00 pm till who knows, I am not sure. Anyways I have to dress-up, and at first I was thinking of being Thumbelina since I am soooo small in size, like her, but shes got bright red-ish orange hair and green eyes and real white, and well thats not much like me. I know I know the whole part of halloween is to dress up as something compleatly different than yourself....Yet at the same time I do not really have the money or the time to go get a full costume, plus a wig. So I have decided to go as Pocahontas instead!
That way I'll just dye my hair dark brown like I have been meaning to do so (Yes I already have the hair dye as well), put it in little braids and call it a day! I am also pretty tan too, so I look a litlle more like her, minus my green eyes...Than tomorrow after my volunteering thing Gramas and I can go get a litle costume, and I will be all set! O yay I am so excited now! Haha, I am 22 years old and still excited about dressing up, haha I am such a kid at heart!
I must say I love Halloween, it is my favorite holiday! It always has been ever since I was a little girl, I used to love helping the parents decorate the house with Halloween window clings, pumpkins, statues, etc! And I love to carve pumpkins and than bake the seeds with some salt and than eat them! Hmmm, so good!
And I love, love vampiers!
 I think they are so cool & sexy! And if there really were vampiers I would deff be one! A good one that is. Hahah.
Okay well it is now 7:00 pm and I am going to go get something to eat...This will be the first real thing I have eatten today, besides a few handfulls of sun chips, a fun size milkyway, a cup of coffee, a Diet Coke, 2 bottles of water....Just was not feeling hunrgy at all today really...Hmmm maybe I am a little depressed; sleeping late, up all hours of the night, not hungry. Yeah that sounds about right. Over what, or about what? I am not sure. Maybe I am just sick of how boring and pointless my life feels right now to be, plus the whole stupid as court hearing thing, and dealing with my past. Yeah thats it, I know it is. Sighs.
Linkin Park Lyrics
Numb
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I LOVE LINKIN PARK & THIS IS BY FAR MY FAVORITE SONG BY THEM!!!! I LOVE IT, LOVE IT, LOVE IT!
Okay well talk to you all later, until than take care and much love!!!
xox Samantha xox
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Posted by ThroughTheRain on 2009-10-27 19:14:46 | Rating: | Views: 235
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