I will respond to this when I have time...right now is not good for me and because I want to write more than just a few words. :)
I'll be back!

...dani

Okay thanks hunnie! I'll be waiting to hear back from you! :) Until than take care and much love!



xox Samantha xox

Ps....Do you think I should write her back or not even waste my time???...



xox Samantha xox

You will always have those few 'fake' people in life. Ignore them or accept their fakeness(Is that a word?) The point is, you have to do what makes you happy in life. You can't please everyone.

Best wishes,
*Miss Nightmare*

Yes you are so right MissNightMare, I am just comming to realize this, that I cant please everybody and need to do what makes me happy. I all my love have alawys tried to please everyone else no matter what kind of bullshit it put me through. I can not lie I am very soft at heart, and think/wish that everyone was as good as person that I am, not to sound concided that is. Anyways I am learning that this is often not the case and am starting to get a little harder now. Whihch I see as a good thing.
Well thank you so much for your comment! Talk to you later! Until than as always take care and much love!


xox Samantha xox

PS.....Do you think I should write her back or not even waste my time???....


xox Samantha xox

{{{{{Samantha}}}}}}
As long as you are happy, that is what counts. You are true to yourself, you stick up for yourself...
I read the other blog with the letter to your Aunt, but didn't comment on it yet. So I will comment here. I do not blame you at all for writing that letter. I don't get your aunt...in her letter to you, she is all nicey-nicey after she knows exactly what she said to you and how you had to have felt. I feel that if someone loves you, whether this person is a family member or a friend, they should ALWAYS love you unconditionally, accept you for who you are and that is that.
I agree with the quote: Be who you are and say what you feel...because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
That is what I expect from my family and friends...I do not want anyone to ever try telling me to change; I want accepted for me, exactly as I am!
You stay strong, you stay true to yourself as you already are now, and don't you worry about a thing because you will make it, my friend. Those who love you for YOU and accept YOU for YOU...they will be the ones there for you throughout your life, at your wedding, there for your children, birthdays, etc.
Keep your head up...and remember, you ALWAYS have a friend in me!
Lotsa love and hugs,
*Dee*

Awww hey dee thank you sooo much for your comment!!! I am soooo happy knowing that I have a friend in you!! You too have a friend in me as well! :) Yay! Hahah...

I dont get my aunt either.....But than again I know how she is, like I said she is the type that will smile in your face and spit on your name, she is fake, two-faced. Sad but true.

I totally agree with you! I too feel that wheather your a family member or friend you should love and accept whom ever how ever they are. But not everyone does that these days, in fact only a few people truly do.

I love the quote "Be who you are and say what you feel...because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." To me it holds truth, in its every word!

I am soooo sick of everyone trying to change me "for the better" they think! I just want to be me! I want to live my life how I see fit and be happy! And so now I am putting my foot down, starting with my Aunt Vickie....

I know I'll make it I am determined to do so! So that in the end I can go back and throw it in everyones faces who ever told me that I wouldnt make it, that I cant do it, that I wont amount to anything in life! Its going to take me a while, but I know in time I will get there; I'll have a good job as a Medical Sonographer,a loving wife,a beautiful child or children,a nice house, 2 nice cars, a kitten, a dog (Huskie) and 2 horses (a barn and feild).

I just got to try and keep my head up through it all....


Okay well take care my friend and much love as always!!!!



XOX Samantha XOX



PS...Should I write her back or not even waste my time?

You're very welcome, Samantha, any time at all :)

What is really sad is that she is your aunt, a family member...and with someone like that who SHOULD love and accept YOU for YOU, it is a shame she is as she is toward you. With someone like her, nobody needs enemies!

You should live your life how you want to, what makes you happy. And I have faith in you that you will make it far in your life, you will have everything you mentioned and more. The people who are by your side now, through thick and thin, no matter what...they are the ones who will still be with you then!

You can keep your head up and make it through it all...and if/when you need to "talk", my mail is always open to you!

As for writing back your aunt, I wouldn't even waste your time. If she decides to change her tune in time, that is great...but from what I've read and from your experience while visiting her, right now she has her mind made up...so you would just be going back/forth with her and becoming more upset and frustrated. That's just my thoughts on that though.

Best of luck sweetie...

xoxo,
*Dee*

Dee,

Forgive me, but what do you mean by with someone like her, nobody needs enemies? I think I get it, but than again I am not sure. Hahah. Sorry I had a huge math test today, and passed the first half, but not the second half so Ive been studing for that all day and night. I take the second half on Friday. Anyways my brain is fried! Hahah.

Anyways yes I am just going to live my life,and do and be with who make me happy. Cause sadly in the end, often the only one we can trust is ourselve! This Ive learned the hard way. Even so I am still such a softy at heart, but trying to change it some. No not to the point were I am a total bitch, but to the point were I do not and will not put up with peoples bullshit. Ya know? Yet at the same time hopefully I can find a few good people/friends/family that will see me through thick and thin no matter what...

Thanks for being here for me! I love all my thoughts friends, you are all so great! You and everyone else here keep me going, keep me sain...Hahah..

Yeah I was thinking it would be a waste of my time to writ my aunt back as well....Its just not worth it...Ya know?...


Okay well take care and much love as always, my friend....



xox Samantha xox

Samantha,

What I meant when I wrote "with someone like her, nobody needs enemies"...
she talks down to you, tries to tell you have to live your life, tries to tell you that you should change, etc. Then in the next breath tells you she loves you because you are her niece. To me, and this is just my take on things, and I know you love her since she is your aunt, but she treats you rudely and mean. Friends/family do not do that to you.

Don't worry sweetie, you will find some good people/friends/family that will see you through thick and thin no matter what...in fact, it looks like you have some that will do that right here on Thoughts. I know I will!

xoxoxo,
*Dee*

I truly love all my thoughts friends, you are all the greatest! Love you Dee!

Thank you for explaining what you ment when you said "with someone like her, nobody needs enemies"...I totally agree with you on this for sure... This is why I say that she is "a shallow, close-minded, fake, two-faced person. And that she is the type to smile in your face and spit on your name." And to be honest this agervates me even more than my Aunt Debbie who is just blut as all hell and has told me a number of time that I am a self-centered, concided, spoiled, little bitch, that does not care about anyone, but myself and that I really need to change my ways (all around that is), o but she loves me so, as well. I say this agervates me more cause lest my Aunt Debbie is upfront and does not try to be all sweet about it.

It is sad, but I do not have good relationships with many of my family members, the few that I do have a good relationship with would be; Shelby (my younger sister), Grama Sherily & Grampa David (on my Moms side), Aunt Dawn & Uncle Gene (on my Moms side), Grama Nancy & Grampa Don(on my Dads side), Aunt Peggy (on my Dads side),Cheetara (my one close cusion, my Aunt Peggys older daughter) o and of course my nephews; Hayden who is going on 6 soon, and Zavien who is going on 2 soon (my older sister Ryans sons).

Every one else I either dont have a good relationship with or just pretend like everything is peachy, when in reality it is not. Looking at how small my list is and how big my family/family memebers are in numbers, that is pretty sad, if you ask me.

I hope that in time I find some true people/friends & family (well that I have some what from the list above) that will see me through thick and thin, no matter what. It would be nice. That is besides all of you wonderful people on thoughts.com! :)

Well take care hunnie and as always much love! And if you ever need any one to talk to I am here for you always!



xox Samantha xox

Yep, your aunt has her beliefs firmly rooted in cement. No changing that.
She may "love" you but not unconditionally and she defintitely doesn't respect you. Otherwise, she would have kept her opinions to herself.
Writing back to her would be a waste of time. If I were you, I'd spend very little time with her since she doesn't respect you and will only get in your face whenever she can. You can, however, be respectful towards her when you do see her. Maybe show her who is the bigger person in the relationship.
If and when you do marry, I don't think that you should allow her to visit with your wife or children. It's likely that she will have even less "love" and respect for them and they don't deserve to be exposed to her evil side.

Peace
*

Merrybright,

Hey there thank you so much for your comment...Yes my aunts beliefs are rooted in cement for sure, thats fine...I just dont care to hear about it, you know?...

Yes she does love me, but not unconditionally, for if she did she would not care at all. And no she deff does not respect me in the least. Luckly she lives in FL and I in GA, and I looking to go home for x-mas to visit the family when she will be here so that is good...:) I am respectful to her, for that is how I was raised and to show that I am the bigger person....

Yes I think that is smart Merry, to not let her or anyone else who wants to try and change me and be disrespectful towards me, around my wife and kids, because I do not them to be subject to that kind of hurt and pain.

Okay hunnie well take and much love...And if you ever need a friend I am here for you, always!!


xox Samantha xox

Samantha, have you written back to your aunt yet? What's happened since you wrote this blog? Has anything changed?

We spoke on the phone, well really she called me yelling at me....Cause she sent me an email saying;
November 2, 2009
Prisoners Of Sin
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The Scripture has confined all under sin, that the promise by faith in Jesus Christ might be given to those who believe. %u2014Galatians 3:22

A2008 report from the United Nations Office on Drugs and Crime said, %u201CAt any given time there are more than 10 million people imprisoned worldwide.%u201D Since some prisoners are being released while new ones are being sentenced every day, there are more than 30 million total prisoners worldwide each year. Statistics like these have caused many people to work for prison reform and a reexamination of sentencing laws.

From a spiritual perspective, the Bible offers an even more staggering statistic: %u201CThe Scripture declares that the whole world is a prisoner of sin%u201D (Gal. 3:22 niv). In what is sometimes considered a difficult passage to understand, Paul says that although the Old Testament law could not impart life (v.21), it was an effective teacher in showing us that we need a Savior who can give life (v.24). The bad news is that %u201Cthe Scripture has confined all under sin,%u201D and the good news is %u201Cthat the promise by faith in Jesus Christ might be given to those who believe%u201D (v.22).

When we give our lives to Christ, who has fulfilled the requirements of the law, we are no longer imprisoned by sin. Instead, we enter a fellowship of people from every nationality and social status.

In Christ, we are free indeed! %u2014David McCasland

The law reveals the mind of God,
The prophets too made clear His will;
But Christ alone brings life and peace,
His words our deepest needs fulfill. %u2014D. De Haan

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Correct me if I am wrong, but with all that her and I have been talking about doesnt that sound like her speaking of me being a lesbian? I think so...So I sent her back this;
Aunt Vickie,


Please do not send me anymore of these types of emails, for I am not stupid I know what you are trying to get at here. You are trying to say that I have not found God and Jesus, and so that is why I live the life I live, when this is not the case. Anyway's I do not care to hear it, since you do not care to hear my side, so why should I hear yours?


Okay well take care and much love, as always...



xox Samantha xox

And thats why she called me all upsest and yelling.....We spoke for a bit, more her than me and than hung up, on good terms or so she thinks....O well, what ever....



Okay well take care hunnie and much love!!!!



xox Samantha xox

Ok this is all BS if you ask me. Sending scripture and bringing religion into whether a person is questioning his or her sexual orientation is ridiculous, really. No disrespect toward your aunt, but I think its just silly to try and make a person be what THEY want them to be. I just have a hard time with this. In my opinion, no one chooses to be gay/bi/lesbian...they just KNOW they are. If your aunt can't accept you for who you are, and what you are....then I'd have to wonder why. Is she ashamed that she has a neice that's a lesbian? Does it bother her that someone in her family isn't straight? It just bothers me that she just doesn't accept you for who you are with open arms, smile and say "I love you regardless of what you are Samantha. Your my neice and I'll always love you." The End.

She says she does, but than in the same breath that she does not support me being a lesbian and that I need to change my ways or that I will go to hell. While on that topic,religion I personally do not believe that I will go to hell if there really is one that is, all for who I love. And yes you are right I did not choose to be a lesbian I just am. My Aunt also thinks that I choose to be a lesbian as well, I told her that I choose to be a lesbian the same day she choose to be straight...She thinks that since I have dated guys in the past back in the 6-9th grade that I am straight, not really a lesbian...Just cause I dated guys in the past does not make me straight, for I was always attracted to woman, and being with a guy never felt right to me. In fact I never even "been with a guy" in that way before.

I think it is all total BS as well and do not care what she says....If she wants to be like so, than so be it! I just hope she is not supirised when she does not get an invitation to my weeding, or I do not bring my wife and kids around her. Forgive me if I am being a bitch here, but unless she changes her thinking, I do not want to put my wife and kids through the BS and pain as well. This goes for anyone else in my famiy as well, as sad as it may sound...

I know she is ashamed that I am a lesbian, cause when we were out one night walking to streets of FL with my Grama and Grampa, and Uncle Ray she kept pointing out all the "cute guys" to me and being like ooooo. Than a cute girl walked by and we smiled at eachother and my Aunt scuffed and mumbled under her breath "disgusting"...So yes she does not like that fact that all of her family memembers are not one big happy straight family, with a husband and a wife, and 3 kids and a puppy and 2 cars and nice white house with a piked fence.

Oooo and get this she says that me saying I am a lesbian is telling everyone of my sex life, yet her saying that she is straight is not. Hahah. Tell me how that is so? See thats is her problem right there she sees being lesbian/gay/bi as just who you have sex with nothing more....When those who are lesbian/gay/bi do everything that straight couples do and some even more....Yes some of your lesbian/gay relationships are better and more loving then your straight relationships....

Anyways I do not care what she says....I am who I am and I am proud of everything and what I am!!!! End of story....


Okay well take care and much love, as always.....




xox Samantha xox