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Makes Sense to Me

This blog was never meant to be a whine-fest, poor me, pity party word pad. But, oh well, because the last three days I've been completely consumed with my crap financial/education/career situation.

So maybe I don't have it the worst!
Maybe I have my health!
Maybe I have a "good job"!
Maybe I've never experienced "real tragedy" on any level!

But you know what??? THIS IS MY LIFE!

I want to go back to school. That's all. I want out of my current debts, but I won't ask anyone else to pay them. I just can't incur anymore. Okay? I desperately need tuition money. No room and board. I'll buy my own books. I just want to go back. I want to finish and be the real me.

So as I ponder my situation, and a way out---or in, if you're a glass half full person, I keep coming back to this idea; I know there are people out there--SO MANY people who have money, quite literally more money than they know what to do with. Some of them donate to big charities; some shop a lot, and some JUST SIT ON IT. Fine. It's their money, fair and square. But why not just kick me a little bit and CHANGE MY LIFE. Honestly, do you know how painful it is to be in my position and watch show's like "Sweet 16" on MTV, where parent's spend HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS on a spoiled rotton, materialistic, 16-year-old's BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!!! Or Paris Hilton and the price tag of ONE TRIP down Rodeo Drive???

How about Oprah, Bill Gates, the Big Steel Indian Guy, Oil Tycoons, you know, those people making a $100,000 a second and ridiculous things like that....and I can't afford to finish school! They could cover it all in one fell swoop and the change in their balance would be imperceptible. That's just crazy.

All I need, I swear to god, is tuition money. They could pay it directly to the school. I'm for real. In the grand scheme of things, I accomplish everything I want with about $30K MAX. It’s sick to think how LITTLE money that is to some people. They'd bet it on a golf game with a buddy or spend on a antique vase that will sit in some hallway and collect DUST! It's crazy to think that there aren't quite a few of them that have to look at a situation like mine and be like "Hey that's pennies to me; I could really contribute to this young woman's future. She's smart, and driven, and I think she deserves a shot at this."

And I guess they do...some of them. Oprah and the Gates' are the some of the richest, but also some of the greatest philanthropists that history has ever known...God bless them...

So I know in reality, it's complicated but it’s just that the concept seems SO SIMPLE to me. Why can't I get a piece, a second change, an amazing gift?

I'd love comments on this...

Do you think this is a selfish and presumptuous preposition?
Are you rich?
Care to share why you WOULDN'T drop 50K on an education for a stranger?
If you WOULD consider it, what would it take?

No, I don't have a kid that's dying of cancer. I've never experienced a natural disaster or an act or terrorism.

I JUST WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL.

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