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loves last stand

Ill take the hint after u take this note into consideration. I cant tell u I love u anymore, not because I dont but because I love u so much that words wont do. But Ill just keep my mouth shut and my eyes shut tighter in the hope that when I force them open it is a dream and all the "I love u"s and "plz be mine"s that have built up over time r welcome to ur ears. This is what I get for letting my heart win over and over again, every time I see u I fall in love again and as much as I hate it I look forward to seein u again every time we part. These words that u hear with ur eyes that sit right in front of u r no good, they r fake, but only because they r not good enough at explaining how much I feel for u. This is my last stand, as I stand up and let u point the gun at my heart, if u want to pull the trigger I am not goin to try and stop u, but if not then plz let me know because not knowing what is goin on is killin me in itself. U seem to say one thing to me and then act out another, like u r lying to me. Am I out of the picture or is it fading? I try talking but all I get are stories of other guys. I wanted to dance with u, but u danced with him, I wanted to be him in that moment so bad it nearly killed me. I wanted to be the one that u could love, I wanted to be the one to lead u around that floor. It broke my heart again but thats ok, my heart is so used to bein broken now that I didnt die, it didnt stop it just cried. Maybe, just MAYBE u will get this and see what I mean and I am talking about, but u wont...u will never. Nobody will ever know that this is for u. I may aswell give up any hope that anyone will help this reach ur eyes. So there is only one thing left to say...

ps: I love you