A random act of kindness is all it takes to change the world...one random act of kindness at a time, so I have come to realise. Its funny how little things hit you so hard that you cant believe you didnt see them sooner. Maybe as humans we are ment to miss things? Are we ment to be blindfolded and blind to things until the right time? If so I have just had mine taken off and can now see. As I sit here at 12:04am and look into what is becoming a white light for a screen I can only think of how much I want to change the world. I want to make myself heard, to be listened to. I have something to say and I want people to understand.

 ...ok...I am on msn right now...I finished that last line and went to check what my friend wrote. He is going through a hard time at the moment and I wanted to see how he was.  He just told me that his mum has cancer. So as I sit here with tears in my ears and a heart that feels likeit has been dropped from a plane I can only ask for your thoughts and prayers. Not for me, for him and his mum. 

 Pain dies as something stronger takes over and the will to win goes with it.  Please dont go or leave me here alone, I cant cope, not like this. Take hope from hope and have nothin left, take love out of a relationship and its no longer a relationship. I have nothing left...not thoughts but only worries...

 plz...pray