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I have cried more today than I have in quite a long time. I finished my blog last night, turned off the lights in the livingroom and Brad woke up. "Come sit by me for a minute." I did, and he said I love you baby, whats wrong? I can tell you are upset. I didn't say anything. I cried...told him I loved him and came to bed. I cried myself to sleep. Woke up this morning, and got the kids off to school, and he wanted to know how come I am so depressed. I told him. I told him how I felt about being lonely, and how the kids treat me like I am the crap on the bottoms of their shoes, and how I need help with the housework and not one person will offer and they throw fits when asked. He listened, and then apologized for being hurt and not being able to help me and for being so tired. Of course, then I felt like I was selfish and that I was only being greedy cause I wanted time from him that he was not able to give at this time. So, I cried harder. Had to see the therepist today, and cried the entire time. But, I did tell Brad that after I left therapy, I was going to his mom's to cut her hair and that she was going to give me a perm. So, I left instructions for the kids to put their clothes up on hangers, and to have Tiana (15) cook supper. I got home, and she made supper. Not sure what she was making, but it was bland. She cooked boneless, skinless, chicken breast, then cut it up and mixed it in white rice with chicken broth. I buy minute rice and had bought two boxes......she used both. Not I cant make my chicken stir fry......but, I didn't have to make supper and she actually did it. For the most part, they put their clothes away. Didn't touch the towels which with all the kids we have.......there are always tons of them.
My hair looks like a big fuzz ball.......but in a few days, it will look awesome. I have kept my hair short for the last 4 years at least...really short. Brad asked me to grow it back out and so I did. It was down the my bra strap and sooooooooo....its perm time. I love my hair permed, just hate it for the first few days. I was hoping that since I had cut out all the color and old perm and my hair was very natural now, it wouldn't frizz.......but who am I kidding. It frizzes when its straight.
Blew the whole diet thing today. I eat when I am "depressed"or in my "lows." I stopped at McD's and got a 10 piece chicken nugget meal. And then got a Mt. Dew. Took me about 5 hours to drink the 44 ouncer, but...it was not as good as I thought it would be. Haven't walked in the last few days either.....need to do that.
Thinking about homeschooling my Christopher (8). He cries so much caue he doesn' t want to go to school. Says everything is so hard. He is in an ED class...emotionally disabled. Christopher is bipolar and a few other things. So, tomorrow I will call his case manager for education and request a case confernce and see about putting him back in a regular class and see how that goes....and if it goes like I believe, I will check into schooling him at home. Although he will be 9 in less than a month....we believe and everyone around us believe that he behaves more like a 5 to 6 year old. He has a learning disablity on top of it......but he isn't bad enough to be in a special education class. I wonder......just how homeschooling works. I know the other kids will want to be also.......but, I believe that Christopher is special and that he would benifit from being home with us letting us teach him. Of course.........I will probably lose all my hair then.
How come everyone is hating on Brittany Spears so much? I know that she is doing a lot of messed up stuff.....but I seriously don't think people realize that she has some issuses going on that none of us could deal with either and would probably do the same thing. She is so used to having things done her way and then when they arent'......she doesn't realize that she is going to loose everything. She lost her kids and lost herself. I know I would have done the same. How many mothers out there and fathers for that matter.......kill themselves and their children because they don't want to let their kids go to who the courts say? She is hurting, she is sad.......she needs to have prayer and she needs to be left alone from everyone so she can find herself and grow up to be a mother for her children. Just my opionion.
Prayers to all.....and please, pray for me and my family,
Sadiee Lady
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Posted by Thinks_2_Much on 2008-01-11 00:45:23 | Rating: | Views: 113
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Hey, I'm getting a perm tomorrow too! My hair is down to my bra straps as well. I had gotten it cut last Xmas and my husband was not happy. . . nor was I! So, tmorrow we go kinky:) HAHA
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Posted by StaceyLP
on 2008-01-11 17:39:21
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i feel the same with Brittany spears she has a lot of shit to deal with and i am sure its not easy to go through stuff specially on tv and having tv filming ever emotional fall she goes through i feel bad for her and pray for her i think people just need to be more sympathetic to the ways her life has turned.
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Posted by kate86
on 2008-01-12 20:41:16
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