So I have a friend, we have been friends for like 6 or 7 years, and she has decided that if I am not in a perfect mood that I am all of the sudden a jerk and I should be completely igonored by everyone that I know. i am extremely frustrated and I have absolutly no idea what do do. She is wrong and I know that, not because I always think I am right, but because she said that I am a jerk and I need to either announce to her what type of mood I am in so that she knows, OR I need to just go away!? GIRLS!! grr!!!

today I am suppose to be going out with a friend, he is really nice, and super hot! really he is i promise! but, the thing is I have a boyfriend and I love him so so much, but I am starting to wonder if I am getting bored with him? Do i really love him? is it worth it to do something that could hurt him, or worse break us apart? I think I am afraid of letting go of one person before I have someone else to fill that space.

I feel like i am just laying in such a small section of the earth, looking at the sky above me and wondering... who am I? is it even worth being here anymore? I feel like maybe.. I should just shut down until high school is over, just become numb and not be involved with anything until I can not worry about the screwy people in high school! formaly known as HELL.

please, comments, let me know.