This is my first time blogging, but I really need to get some things out.

I'm in a marching band, I play flute.

Ever since I joined it, things have been turning this way and that.

Our band has quite a few sections in it, and a former friend of mine plays tenor sax. Her name is Alanna.

I've known her for about a year, we've gone through tough times. Her ex left her for me (in the same day) then cheated on me with her, then broke up with me for my best friend. What a lovely way to begin a friendship.

Recently, the sections of our band have been in dispute of whos best, basically because my section got called out for best marching and behavior. She and I started arguing about it because every other section was jelouse of us. Then we had both agreed to stop talking about it because we agreed every section was equal.

A few days ago (after we won first in our devision, with an undefeated season) she started saying that the saxes were best, again. Yes it sounds stupid, but it hurt to think that my so-called "best friend" would disregard how I felt on it and do it again.

So, I sent her a message saying I didn't like it, and that she was changing.

Anyone who knows me will tell you I'm brutally honest. I know I am.

So we have this entire dispute on everything thats happened this season (like her becoming so attached to her boyfriend Eric that all of her friends mis her because they barely get to see her and when they do hes all she talks about, and how her style and raction to things are changing) and she had her stooged (Alex, Mary, and Jackie) turn on me and try to push me around by saying crap to me about how much of a hyppocrite I am.

To me, at least Jackie is a hyppocrite. She personally told me she thought Alanna was changing, and now shes trying to defend her.

Smart.

And Mary aparently was told by someone that my friend Leo and I were discussing why she and her boyfriend had broken up after 10 months. Leo had called her fat and said Tom could do better, and I said that over the summer she had become obsessed wit him and snooty because they never saw eachother because he is in the band too and she isn't.


So, now I'm stuck in this retarted mash of emotions, pride, and betrayal.
Isn't it funny how marching band can change us?

I really need some advice-- but at the same time, I don't want to have to go back to them if theyre gonna do that over and over. Theyve caused drama before, and it's troublesome.


[[Help me.]]