Loneliness is one of worst things a person can ever feel. Its a pain that hurts so deeply more than an physical pain like a cut. It is something that is felt deeply in the heart and soul. It is a very destructive emotion because it works slowly and hidden. It is a state of being where you are lost and feel like you have no hope. Loneliness is my constant state of being lately. No matter how hard I try to fight it, I can't seem to destroy it. I feel it even when I'm around others with the exception of my family and one of my few friends. I want to be rid of this feeling of pain, of desperation, of hopelessness.......I see others and it just is like a stab in my heart. When it gets bad like I just can't stay somewhere, around certain people, feeling like I can't take it anymore, I want to cry and never stop. It hasn't progressed to point where I'm suicidal and I don't ever want it to get that far. I try to keep it and all my emotions in check especially the desire to cry. I don't think that I have been close to someone that I can be totally honest about how/what I'm feeling. That is my greatest wish, to be so close to someone that I can be honest about my emotions. The only way I keep my sanity is through writing, be it by poetry or even blogging.