People started reading my posts. Some also replied making their presence more tangible. People actually know what I am thinking.
I wasn't very prepared for that. It raises issues. Honesty issues.
Am I being honest with myself when I post? Do I subconsciously edit my writtings? Include only what is proper for other people to know about me? Only what cannot be used to hurt me?

This brings out a character flaw of mine. Present in every interaction. Uptight, not letting it out, always inside my boundaries, insecurity. People sense that, it makes them feel awkward and keep their boundaries as well when they relate to me.
Genetic predisposition? Some psychic trauma? An inherent shyness? I don't know but this is probably one cause of my loneliness and corresponding sadness.

Even behind the curtain of this fake internet anonymity I find it problematic to open up.

And a random thought:
Isaac Newton calculated that the end of the world will be around 2050.
I heard some days ago that the Mayan calendar predicts the end on the world around 2012.
A new model forecasted rapid temperature increase after 2010 or 2012 I don't remember.

So what? :)