This weekend is almost done.  I have done a lot of thinking, crying and right now feeling at little at peace.  I keep telling myself, NO more self pity.  I look for the things that give me joy.  I am a volunteer and foster Mom for our local animal shelter.  I take in abused and unwanted dogs.  I train them, love them and help to place them in forever homes.  Over 40 dogs each with different personalities and problems have come into my life.  As I sat here today by myself letting my emotions of the last week get to me, I looked up and saw them.  All 6 of them.  They were laying all around where I sat. Some with bones, some sleeping and then there was Keeper!  My little Pit Bull!  His almond eyes just looked up at me as if to say it would be ok Mom.  He crawled up on my lap, flip on his side and just cuddle with me.  He came to me just months old. Full of mange to the point his body had blisters.  He was so underweight.  It tooks days before I could even touch him.  It took 14 months of treatments for the mange, but we finally got it under control.  As he grew we saw his mouth was crooked and he never got his canine teeth.  But he was so full of love.  My once foster dog became a "keeper" Thus he got his name.  I made it thru this day that started off with such pain, feeling a little more like myself.  He may not love me. He may have cheated on me. But I do have these amazing wonderful dogs who love me.  I will try to remember this when my thoughts seem to go his way.  I am trying to be strong and stay busy.  I stare at them right now.  They think I have saved them. The truth is THEY HAVE SAVED ME TODAY!  They are the beauty of the Dance!