Yep, Christine and I are now having time away from each other.
Currently, I am staying with my mother untill she has a chance to think about what she wants. I will admit, I miss her heaps... and all I want to do is cuddle with her and tell her I love her... but I left for that reason. I cannot get "I love you" to exit her lips. AT ALL. I don't know what I have to do to get anywhere anymore, but I can't live without her. I doubt any of you care, but I love this woman with all my heart... and I feel like I need to walk away to make this work. Now, I don't want to walk away, so I'm stuck in a tight spot.
How much would a man have to take in order to be happy? Christine keeps saying "I just want to be happy"... So do I. But, is it going to be with each other?
I find it hard to trust her, I don't know why... but I'm finding it hard to trust her. I feel like if this gets worse... she'll stay with me for whatever reasons, and then cheat on me with someone who could make her happy. I don't like thinking like that, but the person she is changing into, would do that to me and not care.
One thing I love her to death for, is that she finally admitted that she has changed, and not for the better. This is a sign I think, that life is on the way back upwards.
Hopefully this few days away from each other will do good, but I don't know how long I can stay away from her before I miss her so much.
Dan out.