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So I had this dream last night that for some reason, it was agreed on that I had to marry one of Ben's friends. I think it was something to do with money, but Ben, my parents, him, everyone said that we should get married, then get an annulment like a week later. I have no idea why. I was like ummmm okay... So anyway I had to go through yet another marriage that I didn't want too. Then, my dream fast forward and I was hanging out with my friend Courtney and I hadn't heard from Ben in a while. I was in this like weird cabin place, and then Courtney and I were at a bar and all I could think about was Ben. So I called him and I didn't get an answer and as I was leaving him a voicemail, a call came back from "Edward" which is the name of my old cat. It was Ben and he said that he would have to use this number because it was a calling card and he was so far away. I was so confused and basically he was saying that he didn't really know why were talking because we weren't together anymore and he "was over it." I was like WHAT?! I'm with Courtney, I only went through with that because I thought I had too and it was partly your idea! Why?? What's going on?? Then I woke up, in a panic, checked to see that Ben was still beside me. It sounds like a silly dream but I think there is a lot of meaning behind this dream. Dream interpretation is something that I am sort of into. So anyway, I believe it was a reflection on a lot of things. First on how I feel and felt about my first marriage. That I didn't want to go through with it and I did anyway out of pressure. Second, I think it reflects on my fears that I will be alone. The fact that he was "far away" didn't make sense to me and I think that reflects on my fear that if I were alone I would be all alone out here in California. The thing about my cat, not sure. The fact that he said "he was over it" I believe came from a conversation I had with an old girl I knew who told me her and her boyfriend of about 4-5 years broke up and that's what he told her. The calling card from my cat... yeah, not sure about that. Guess I just miss him? Anyway it was a terrible dream.
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Posted by TheAlreadyJaded on 2008-01-24 16:02:39 | Rating: | Views: 73
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