Oh my gosh.. that is alot of stuff to handle. Stay strong and if you need someone to talk to.. i am here!

I want off this ride also but my ride started in 2000 and it's been all downhill and really fast. The mistake I made in 2000 and ended in 2006 but I want off this ride badley.

hide your heartache in the holidays.. let not your heart be troubled..

I'm so sorry Jaded! :(. You're in my thoughts and prayers. The end of the year is near, I hope that it's full of laughter and smiles. No worries or heavy burdens in sight.

And I'm not sure how someone couldn't like you!? :). You rock! Hopefully they'll come to their senses! *hugs*

Wow YOU are the strong one. You have had a tough road but you have made it so far. You are allowed to feel low, let your self get down. Cry and lock your self away. But be sure once you are done with feeling low, pick yourself up and realize that you something that some people don't have. Don't blame your self for things. Life happens and sometimes it sucks. Be careful with your man...make sure you don't push him away in all of this. I am sure he LOVES you dearly and doesn't know how to handle you feeling low but just remember he is there for you and you will be fine!

Enjoy the good and cry out the bad.

Oh, my dear Jaded. I wish I had wise words for you, but you know my struggles with depression, so I am in no position to advise anyone, even someone with a light case of it.

I do believe that yours, unlike mine, is situational, and that's good. This, too, shall pass, as they say. No matter what you do, 2009 IS going to end. All the sadness and death that it has beheld will end with it.

But, Jaded, as you ponder the sadness of the bad things that have happened to you, don't forget to follow those thoughts through to "the rest of the story."

Yeah, it sucked what you went through, but think about who you were at this time in 2008 to right now. Jaded, you are a different person. You have grown and matured into a remarkable young woman. You were quite awesome last year, but honestly, Jaded, you couldn't hold a candle to the enlightened, strong, self-aware and self-assured woman that you are today.

Sure, that came at a huge price. Anything worth having always does. So, don't lose sight of all that you gained - that came through all that you lost.

I know you'll be fine. You just needed to vent. Just keep in mind the good stuff, ok?

I am sorry that you feel like you are on a roller coaster. I hope you know that it's ok to feel the sad and not want to experience any more sadness. Things will get back to a routine and you will go back to feeling like yourself. Time heels all wounds, it just takes time.

I'm starting to think that a roller coaster is simply an analogy for life itself and once you're off the rollercoaster, your done. I am constantly riding it myself and from one minute to the next I'm at the top ready to plummet 400 feet, caught in a loop or at the bottom climbing. But I suppose it's better than not living at all. That's how I look at it, at least.

I always wish I could go back to 5 years old. The world was just so much nicer and easier it seemed. I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I used to be so bad that I began thinking every even numbered year was going to be terrible for me(history of terrible even-numbered years). That feeling of doom is still hiding in me though, because I just had to fight back fears of 2010. Hope you feel better soon....and 2009 is almost over!

I have talked to alot of people that say that 2009 is the weirdest year they ever had and that they want off the coaster too. So maybe it is in the water or air or something.....You will make it thru. and just remember, if B's family does not like you then you have solved a big problem...
You know already they have bad tatse so you know to not take any fashion or home decorating advice from them...
smile, you will soon be a bride