i am not exactly sure what in the hell is happening...spinning and slinning...circles of confussion...why am i waiting...why am i hoping that i am the one...there is nothing there...no lust...no feeling...just waiting...wondering...how do i moveon...how do i move past this feeling of anguish and rejection...found a piece of truth previously unseen...pulls the wool off my eyes...no longer hidden...no longer listening...fading away...ugh i hate this feeling...this way i am actin'...i don't do well with this kind of emotion...i don't handle fears and hurt well...i ponder and over think...imake myself sick and lose sleep when there is no earning of my heart...i give it easily to those that are the least careful...those looking out for their number one and forgetting all the rest...i am the rest...i need to look out for my number one...step away and breathe...just breathe...breathe...