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This morning all that is on my mind is death. I'm constantly thinking about my boyfriend and friend that died in a car accident about 4 years ago, and my recent miscarriage. Lately it's been my thought patteren. Missing people who are dead, and then wanting to be dead. But I can't die because I haven't pissed off enough people yet. I feel crappy today, and my mind is stuck in the past, with Guns N Roses Don't Cry blasting in my head phones. Things are crazy around the house and I'm tired of helping everyone else when I feel like curking up to die. I don't see a reason to go since my miscarriage.. and I constantly dream of inflicting mortal damage on my exboyfriend who caused it. Thinking about the guy who still doesn't know I was pregnant with his child (yes, they're different, no I'm not a whore!) Thinking about the baby I will never get to hold . I'm so sick and tired of him exsisting. Others down town want to kick his ass, but those mother fuckers will just have to stand in line.. He killed my child ! I have to go for now, my roomie (crazy girl went out with him after my experience) wants to head to Barnes and Noble! Maybe I can find something there to take my mind off of it but I do doubt it. Well, Blessed be and sweetest night mares to you all.
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Posted by Syra on 2008-03-01 13:28:10 | Rating: | Views: 87
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how did he couse it? i hope you find an awsome book, please cheer up, Godbless
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Posted by bjm1
on 2008-03-01 13:55:20
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hope you find something to help you
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Posted by meghansr2008
on 2008-03-02 00:17:49
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