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A penny for my thoughts

So it's that time again. Time for me to go on a spiel... not so much a rant. Maybe I just enjoy babbling =) as well all know.

My health. That's my topic. Or... part of it. Things in that department haven't been going well. I can generally deal with my bronchial asthma and my severe allergies. I guess I have been dealing with it so long that it's second nature. Don't get me wrong, it can be a TOTAL pain in the butt. In the summer, the heat is hard on my chest especially when I'm using stairs or going up ramps. Or, with allergies, I have to be careful what I am near or what I touch. I can't walk through grass barefoot or anything.

Anyways... then I started with other health problems. Don't worry, nothing major. It's a thyroid issue. It's just more to deal with, more medications added in. More blood tests and tweaking to get the right dosage. Thyroids are very delicate and it is hard to get it regulated - at least in my experience it is.
But I'm dealing with that and figure that's plenty.

But then the pain. I start getting pain in my knees, especially the right one, and my wrists, again, especially the right one, and sometimes even my hands. I try to shake it off and deal with it. I try to wait until I have to return for more blood work but I couldn't. The pain was too much and too constant. I was always uncomfortable. The doctor doesn't know what to tell me though. I try to think if anything else is different. I'm still always cold, my hair is still falling out everywhere (not going bald or anything, thank goodness), my nails get kind of purple/blue when I'm cold, I'm pretty tired most of the time... I try to come up with anything to help give clues as to a cause. I did forget to mention to him that I've had a very increased appetite lately. It's lasted about 3 or 4 weeks. It's a little tamed down now. I thought maybe it was because I was trying to be "healthy" and "good" so I was drinking slimfast for breakfast instead of 3 handfuls of cereal... but then I stopped with the slimfast. I'm still having hunger issues but not quite as severe but still MUCH more than I'm use to so it's sort of driving me nuts.

Course, then there's the vegetarian thing. That seemed to get some attention. He asked about my protein. What do I eat? I hate that question... but, in this case, I get it. Do I eat fish? No. Peanuts? No. Vegetables? Uh... not really, not much. Eggs? I like them but don't eat them much. Where's the proetin? Soy, I say it hesitantly... that's not enough. I get the stern look and the statement that I MUST find a way to eat more protein. *nose crinkles* So... working on it. I guess I have to go back to meat. People have been saying this for awhile, and saying it in a concern for my health kind of way and not in a "you're crazy, eat meat" kind of way. Guess I really haven't been doing too well. Maybe I haven't been taking that great care of myself when I think about it.
My food for a typical day... I get up early and I hate early. I eat a few handfuls of cereal, drink some juice, take meds, and that's all. Lunch is probably my good meal because I eat a soy turkey sandwhich which has the mayo, tomato, and spinach on it so there's some veggies. Dinner is always different - sometime regular pizza, sometimes Amy's rice crust pizza, sometimes a soy "meat" and rice with corn and snap peas, and other times it's vegetable lo mein with rice, snap peas, and green beans. Usually it's pizza. I'm tired when I get home and want something simple. Pizza is simple. Everything else takes all this preparation and usually I just want to relax because I feel exhausted.

So... I tried a turkey burger. Let me tell you, after ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL this time... though really it's only been about 6 years... tasting a turkey burger was REALLY weird. Meat tastes weird. I'm not saying it's bad or good just... different. Oy! What a thing to get use to again, right? I admit, I use to love chicken and turkey when I was eating meat so maybe things will be ok. Who knows? Maybe I just need to not think about it. Ugh. This is hard. I'll try not to think about it and maybe I'll just shop at Whole Foods for meat. I can, at least, get free range, grain fed type things there.

Advice on anything and everything is welcome. This is not easy. But, then again, nothing is.