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I can finally see the light at the end of the tunn

Lastnight I got a letter in the mail with a big fat red label that said "CONFIDENTIAL!" I thought, "Well, this is either great news, or I'm going to prison for screwing up my taxes or something." Turns out it was a letter from Dr. Perry saying that she approved my psychiatric evaluation and that she is recommending me for surgery. This felt like such a huge accomplishment... I was so proud that I got myself over this hump. I've been waiting for this letter for over a year, and it finally came.The last thing we need to do is send in my final approval for the surgery. I'm crossing my fingers that everything goes smoothly... I can't wait to finally have this done.

I'm so nervous, but so excited. It's one of those thing where once you have the surgery "there is no turning back." It's just crazy to think that in one day my entire life will change... I guess I should feel fortunate that I at least have some warning and time to prepare myself. There are a lot of people out there that have huge changes come in their life without notice, and they have no choice but to deal with it. Here I am making a conscious decision to change my life and do it right.

I can't wait to be able to go outside and run 2 miles, or not feel paranoid about my arms when I'm wearing a tank top. I can't wait to sit on the airplane and not have to pray that I don't need to ask for the seatbelt extender. I can't wait to get on the scale and feel content. I can't wait to take a picture using someone else's camera... God forbid they had a chance to see the picture before I could edit it. Ultimately, I can't wait to live my life.