i feel very very sorry for your treatment by your father, i to had
a very violent father who screwed up the lives of my younger half brother and two younger half sisters.
i was in childrens homes from the age of three months until i was sixteen, and during that time i too was sexually abused.
i got over my torment by putting it to the back of my mind and i now have a very happy marriage nine children and a beautifull wife.
so i am confident you will get over the trauma that you suffered as a child.
take care
regards fraglerock

I've been in the same vulnerable situation. I actually saw a lot of what my father did, had to live with his stormy temper and it's effects. He's not around anymore, thank god.
Thanks for sharing, reading this actually helps people reading it, like me, to be able to open up about this, and it has great cathartic purposes for yourself too.
I hope you'll be able to have a good life in spite of what you've been through.

i am nearing my twilight years my friend, but yes my life is good as well
and i hope you have the same long and happy life that i have had so far.
take care and be well.
respect
fraglerock

wow.
this made my day.
I really thank you guys.

I just thought some of you would tell me to shut up and stop bitching or something.

but thank you.
really.

stay kind.