Right now I got so many things going on that my emotions are running on high.

I got camp this weekend and I just want everything to run smoothly; plus I hope that I can get everything I need and that I'm prepared.

I'm a little mad at my two friends who I've been telling for lord knows how long about camp and now they're all like I don't know and shit. Which I understand they work and what not, but come on now, I told you how long ago and your still not even attempting to make the effort to at least try.

Maybe it's cause my emotions are on high I'm just a little stressed.

I'm a little dissappointed not only with my self a little bit, but as well with "T". Okay so on Sat. after hanging with some friends and what not all day and getting home at like 12 that morning, I was feeling idk a bit of in the mood for some sexual action or you know atleast for the accompaniment of a certain someone. So of course I called "T", I tried not to sound you know like desperate, just you know willing to have a good time. I call him and tell him exactly how it is, I told him that I was in mood and oyu know of course he was like for reall and when, so I told him now and he was like okay, so I get off the phone with him and go get ready and what not, you know shower and stuff. After doing all that I laid down to relax for minute and low and behold I fell asleep. Next thing I know it's morning and text him and it turns out his retarted butt fell asleep too. I trid to get him to come over the next cause for some reason if you haven't notice, my sexual who knows what is sitting on high for some reason, but yea anyways I tried to get him to come over the next day when I got back in the house but no such luck. I sent a message asking him when i was going to get some loving from big daddy and he said in two weeks form today when he gets back. I'm like noo and then i haven't heardfrom him since. I feel just so let down by that I don't even know what to do with myself. I really wanted some, actually I still want some. I want to make-out or just lay in the bed and be held, something to satisfy all these sexual urges I got going throught me. I'm like to the point where I could just hump any guy with two legs and penis just to get this weird craving to go away. Well almost any guy. But yeah I've been feeling like this for the past few days. I'm still a little dissapointed at myself that I've broken down and called him.