Okay so yesterday my ex called, which was a shocker to me because I didn't recognize the number when he called, but we talked until like 1 in the morning on and off about our relationship and how we were doing. Well I told him how I felt about the whole situation, cause he said we needed to talk and he wanted me to lay all my feelings and what not out, so I told him I'm not exactly happy on how things ended. He told me it was hard for him to do that and that he never intended for it to happen and he apologizeded. I foregave him of course, cause that's just who I am. I'm telling you I'm not your average girl, I don't really like to hold gruges against my ex's or previous flings or people all like that, except if it's somthing done that really can't be forgiven. Well anyway I told him I want to try and re-kindle what we once had, cause it seemed like the way he left wasn't exactly is fault, but he leaves again in January, so I'm a little worried about that. It doesn't leave us much time to try and pick things back up especially considering the two big holidays in between. I'm just so mixed with different emotions. I'm excited, and happy that he's home, I'm anxious to see him cause I haven't seen him in six months, and I'm also alittle reserved about all of this. I'm a realistic person, he's in the air force so that means he's going to be leaving quite a bit, but I don't have a problem with it considering I'm a military brat and I understand that he has to do what he has to do. I'm also a little reserved about it cause with him leaving, I don't want him to leave like he did last time without saying anything. Plus dare I say I think I may actually be fallen for him. Yes fallen as in love with him. I am so afraid that I may be, cause he may not feel as strongly about me. Uggh this whole thing is so nerve racking. Well who knows how this is going to turn out, but I'll keep you posted. TTyL
♥ Camille
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