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Hi all, I'm back again and allergies are still alittle hay wire, but witht he medicine it's not that bad, but that's not what I'm here to write about. I'm here to write about several completely different things than meds.

The first thing I need to get off my chest is this damn dream I had. I had a dream about my friend. Nothing in the ex-rated sort, but concerning her last name. Her last name is our family name and I had a dream where it turns out that like our great great somthing actually was connected to both of us and we were related. Then I had another dream about the same friend, but this time it was a little different. This dream was about her introducing me to someone and it turning into this serious relationship. It was weird.

Now the second thing I have to get out is that I've been thinking that the relationship (if that's what you call) me and "T" got is going to far. Our relationship or whatever is nothing but pure sexual and lust. I knew this for some time, but I just got caught up in the whole thing that I lost sight of reality and the reality is that this can't be a true relationship. I don't have my heart fully into it and I'm reserving myself emotionally. I just think it would work out this whole sexually thing we got going, I mean it's good sex, don't get me wrong, but just having that is kind of getting old and it needs end before we get to deep.

Another thing I wanted to write about is Nichole. My friend Nichole broke up with her boyfriend not to long ago, well a few days ago and well yesterday she found out that he has a new girlfriend and it just hit her, that it's officially over. I want so much to tell her that it's going to be okay, but I can't cause it would be lying. It's going to hurt like hell for awhile and then it's going to be better. I want so much to make it so that she would never get her heart broken as bad as she just did. So much wish I could go back in time and tell that the 2 years that she is going commit into this relationship is not going to end so happily, so that she can end it early before all the heartache. I wish to do so much for her in this time. When she came over last night crying, I just wanted to cry with her and for her, cause I know how much it hurts. All I know is I'm going to try and be there for her as much as I can. Well TTyL.