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Thanksgiving in a Nutshell

2008-11-30T12:20:27-05:00

Okay so Thanksgiving was and absolute crack up. They had like all the old photo albums out reminiscing on all kinds of stuff. Of course my uncle had little to much and was saying some crazy funny stuff. He was saying how he work had 24/11 and stuff. I also had another thanksgiving with a bunch of my friends at their place the day after, which was nice.

I'm so pissed cause I lost my cell phone Saturday. At first I thought I had it and that maybe I tossed on my bed and maybe it got mixed up in my covers or my nephew had got a hold of it, but then when I called it to find out if I could hear it somewhere in the house I couldn't and then like about umpteenth time calling it, someone actually answered, but they didn't say anything, I could hear like a car or something moving, so I immediately called the phone company and I got my phone shut off and then they said that I would have to buy another phone, but luckily the minutes that I still have on my phone is on hold and are still there for when I get another phone and that I'll be able to keep my same plan and phone number. I have to contact them after I purchase my new phone. I was going to go look at some phones Tuesday, but if they don't have anything that's reasonable or anything I like, then I just will pull out my old phone and get that one activated, even though I really don't like it and I only use it for emergencies. I might just do it to save money. All I know is the dumb butt that has my phone is going to be mad they can't use it. After calling it a couple times the person actually turned the phone off, but the thing is to turn the phone back on to actually use it, you need my password and if you enter that incorrectly then you need the PUK code and if you enter both of those incorrectly to many times then it fries the chip and you can't use the phone at all. Like even if you put another sim card in, the phone may or may not come on and if it does it's still going to ask for the code. If he tries to call the phone company and like get them to unlock it, then he needs my pass code for that. Ha. He might as well forget about getting a free phone, cause he's not going to be able to use it. Not only that if he actually gets past the main password screen and what not, then he will find out that some of my applications, like my pics and texts are locked as well and you need a password for that. Ha Ha.

Well TTyL.

I need More than Luck! ( Explicit)

2008-11-27T11:24:44-05:00

I needed more than luck last night after I signed off last night and went to go hang out with my ex. I mean oh my goodness. Would you just look at his body and you'll see why it's so hard to not fall.

Yes ladies that is him and I'm not even going to go any further and show you a picture of what he's working with cause I don't want people to have heart attacks and what not, but yea, so I go put some shoes and adjust my make-up and head out the door to go hop in the car with him. We drive off and begin talking and what not. You know about life, funny stories, music, and other crap. We pull up into a parking lot or whatever and sit and talk some more and listen to music. Next thing I know we're cuddling in the driver seat holding hands, which then i began to think how I forgot to put a bra on. Dumb mistake on my behalf, cause then he figured out I don't have one either and then one thing lead to another. I just want to say that oh my goodness. Okay so we didn't exactly have sex, but damn near close to it.

Feeling his cold hands upon my breast as they became warm pressed against my body, the way he sucked on my nipple. As I straddled him in the driver seat kissing on his beautiful lips, I was thinking about how much I just want to give in and take off all of clothes and just do it right there, but then I was thinking how much i'm opening up pandora's box if I was to do that, so we just made out, did some phsyical and oral stimulation. Which I know he's probably a little donw cause during all out festivities he asked if we could go further and let him you know actually put it in, which I told him no, cause there is no way I would here and that what we're doing is already something I really wasn't planning on doing. Which he asked like 2 or 3 times if he could put it in. He talking about he wanna fuck me so bad and stuff, which I gave him the same answer,so he probably alittle sad that he didn't get a nut or get to put it in. Oh well what I was doing with him was a stretch in it self and not only that I reached my climax, so I don't know what to tell him. Maybe if wanted to be more serious and what not then I wouldn't have any problem letting him.

Well g2g so TTyL.

Home

2008-11-26T21:58:20-05:00

I'm so excited/ disappointed. My oh so lovely unrequited secret love is home from school. YaY! He said he wanted to see me before he leaves back on Saturday at 0600 (6:00). Now you would think that, that is a good thing, but we can't seem to find a time to hangout or see each other to say Hi and Bye. I was asking what he's doing tonight and he said that he said that he was having dinner and then possibly a movie and oh course Thanksgiving is tomorrow, so it's not like we can meet then, cause we'll be with family and then I said well what about Friday and he was like well I got a doctors appointment and stuff, but then I have a thanksgiving get togehter with a couple of friends, so now we don't know when we'll be able to hang out with each other.

Well g2g cause my damn ex wants to see me before he leaves as well and talk, so we're going to be riding around talking or whatever. Wish me luck!! TTyL.

Musical Lyrics

2008-11-24T15:00:40-05:00

1. "Oh, baby, it's alright now, you ain't gotta flaunt for me If we go there, you can still touch my love, it's free We can work without the perks just you and me Thug it out 'til we get it right" Timbaland- The way I are

2. "Me and all my friends We're all misunderstood They say we stand for nothing and There's no way we ever could" John Mayer- Waiting on the world to change

3. " And all the roads we have to walk along are winding And all the lights that lead us there are blinding There are many things that I would Like to say to you I don't know how Because maybe You're gonna be the one who saves me ? And after all You're my wonderwall" Oasis- Wonderwall

4. " You are pulled from the wreckageOf your silent reverie You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here" Sarah Mclachlan- Angel

5. "You're different and special You're different and special in every way imaginable
You love me from my hair follicles to my toenails You got me feeling like the breeze, easy and free and lovely and new Oh when you touch me I just can't control it When you touch me, I just can't hold it The emotion inside of me, I can feel it" Jill Scott- He loves me (Lyzel in E Flat)

6. " I'mma do the things That I wanna doI ain't got a thing To prove to youI'll eat my candyWith the pork and beans Excuse my manners If I make a sceneI ain't gonna wear The clothes that you like I'm fine and dandy With the me inside Onelookin the mirror And I'm tickled pinkI don't give a hoot About what you think" Weezer- Pork and Beans

7. "F*** off I’ll take you on Headstrong to take on anyone I know that you are wrong Headstrong we’re Headstrong Back off I’ll take you on Headstrong to take on anyone I know that you are wrong and this is not where you belong I can’t give everything away I won’t give everything away" Trapt- Headstrong

8. "When you came my way You brightened every day With your sweet smile" Sade- No Ordinary Love

9. "Oh I don't hold my breath And I don't hold my tounge And I know that you know that I don't back down To no one To no one" Porcelain and the Tramps- My Leftovers

10. "I can feel her on my skin I can taste her on my tongue She's the sweetest taste of sin The more I get the more I want" Ne-Yo- Closer

11. "525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes - how do you measure, measure a year? In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee. In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife. In 525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year in the life?" Rent- Seasons of Love

12. "I love it when she put them pretty lips on me Purple kisses purple kisses She kiss me from my head down to my feet Purple kisses purple kisses" The Dream- Purple kisses

13. "And I heard "Son do you know why I'm stopping you for?" Cause I'm young and I'm black and my hats real low Do I look like a mind reader sir, I don't know Am I under arrest or should I guess some mo?" Jay-Z- 99 Problems

14. "I say he so sweet Make her wanna lick the wrapper So I let her lick the wrapper" LiL Wayne- Lollipop

15. "It's just a little crush (crush)Not like I faint every time we touch It's just some little thing (crush)Not like everything I do depends on you" Jennifer Paige- Crush

Part 2 of Something from Roe

2008-11-24T12:24:00-05:00

Sorry Roe, you might want to pause the music, before someone notice your here.

Have you ever removed a friend from your friend list or anyone from your bookmark list?
~Nope

Has anyone written a book, had it published or signed a book deal while on thoughts?
~ Ha I wish

Do you have regular readers?
~ Umm I'm not sure I do

What surprises you about thoughts.com?
~ I don't think there is anything that suprises me

Are you in the process of writng a book?
~ Acutally yes and no

Do you plan to write a book someday?
~ I really would love to

Does anyone want to earn a living writing instead of doing what they are doing?
~ Oh my goodness yes

Are you sad when someone doesn’t come around your post anymore?
~ No not really, cause things happen. I'm pretty understanding.

Have you ever had a blog argument?
~ Nope

Do you have favorites that you read first before reading anything new?
~ Umm yes and no. It depends on my mood

Have you ever helped someone on thoughts with a problem?
~ Yes

Has anyone helped you with a problem?
~ Yes

What was the best advice someone ever gave you on thoughts?
~ I think it was about a friend

Have you ever told someone off in a comment?
~ Yes

How do you feel when no one comments after you do?
~ Special. LoL. (^_^)v

Do you leave long or short comments?
~ Depends on what was said in the blog

What percent of the posts that you read do you leave a comment?
~ I would say a little more than 95%

What was the subject matter and name
of the post that caused you to have the largest amount of comments?
~ If I remeber corretly it was about my secret love "J"

What post of yours was read by the most people?
~ I have clue, I've been on here so long I feel like a dinasour.lol

What post was ignored that you wish people would have read?
~ Ha probably alot of them

What post did you write that was popular and surprised you?
~ Umm idk

How often so you read posts from the popular list?
~ Occasionally

How often do you check the popular list?
~Rarely

How often do you read the recent blogs?
~ Everytime I sign on

Do you read other peoples comment archive?
~ I only go back and check the one's I left to see if the person responded back, but other than that, nope

Do you read something only because a certain blogger wrote it?
~ Sometimes

Does the title matter to you or the author?
~ Not really, but if something does catch my eye than I might take a gander

Have you read someone only because they left a comment on your post?
~ yes, cause it's only polite, plus they might have something interesting to say.

Do you read profiles before you read a post from someone you don’t know?
~ Sometimes

Have you sent an e thank you note to someone for reading and commenting?
~ I think so

Do you make comments in the comment portion of your own posts?
~Yes

Do you feel obligated to comment on comments?
~ No not really

How often do you e mail a comment instead?
~ Never

Somthing From Roe

2008-11-23T12:18:22-05:00

How did you hear about blogging?
~ A kind of stumbled onto it with another site

What brought you to thoughts?
~ My last blog didn't work out so well

When did you join thoughts?
~ I believe it was around this time last year maybe

What were your expectations?
~ Nothing much, just wanted somewhere to keep my
thoughts, from others and their prying eyes.

Have they stayed the same or have they changed?
~ Nope

What surprised you the most?
~ The amount of veiws I would get.

Do you remember your first comment and who left it?
~ Actually no, but I should look.

Who was the first person to read more than one of your posts?
~ Hmmm... I don't that one either. I really should look into that.

What is your favorite thing about blogging?
~ I think I'm a writer at heart and one day I would love to get my life written as a book, but mean time I'm just happy to have somewhere as and outlet, so I won't explode

Are you on the site anonymously?
~ No, I used an pseudonym

Does anyone know you blog here?
~ Only 2 of my really good friends, but I know for a fact that they never come on here and read it.

Has anyone discovered you were here that was upsetting?
~ No, thank goodness

Any repercussions?
~Nope

Have you ever deleted a post? Why?
~ Yea, it was awhile ago, because the person it was about came back into my life and well basically it's a long story

Have you ever deleted something in the forums and why?
~ Nope

Have you ever left a comment and wish you hadn’t?
~ Nope

Have you made friends here?
~ Not really, but i'm still hopeful. (^_^)v

Has your writing ability improved?
~ I think it gets a little bit better anytime I write.

What type of blog interests you, journal, fiction, inspiration, rants, poetry, other?
~ Real life, poetry, and rants

Do you like music playing while you are reading a post?
~ Yes

Do you ever listen to someones selection of music on their profile?
~ Occasionally

Do some profiles impress you more than others?
~ Actually yes

Have you organized your posts into catagories?
~ Nope, I'm kind of lazy, so there all the same.lol

Do you even care about profiles?
~ Yes, cuz some people actually describe their selves there.

Have you ever read something that you thought was written by a male then found out it was a female,
or have you ever not been sure what sex the person was while reading a new post?
~ Not that I know of

Does the info in the profile make you want to read something or turn you away?
~ It depends on whats on the profile

Have you ever arranged to meet a blogger you met on thoughts?
~ Nope

do you care to describe your experience...was it positive or negative?
~ There wasn't one

Did you ever fall in love with someone on thoughts or have a crush?
~ Nope

Have you ever fallen in love with someones words on thoughts?
~Nope

When you do not know the person asking to be a friend, what do you do?
~ Check there profile out, it is doesn't have much to go on, then I check out a few of there blogs, cause usually the first couple of blogs a person does is openers about themselves and their lives, so then I read those and a few of the random ones and then I decide whether I want to be friends or not.

Sorry Roe I only did like 30, but I was going to do more later. (^_^) Keep writing

Ecstatic

2008-11-22T17:09:32-05:00

I'm like so ecstatic. I took my pysch exam not to long ago and I scored an 88%. Yes that's right you heard it right, and 88%. I'm like so happy, considering that how much I read and highlighted and notated in my book and on paper. I stayed up until like 2 in the morning reading, cause I didn't feel I read enough. Which I will add that this is one of my online classes and so you can use notes, but if wasn't my pursuit to read and take the notes, then I'm pretty sure I would have not did so well. Well any who, I'm excited about that, now I have to keep studying for my finals. LoL. (^_^)v

Oh the little details about the last post is like about when freakin Jiffy was telling Luke about what me and Beliemo did at the State convention and how her roommate Mary laughed at us and how she said she wished should come to our State conventions, cause she's from Illinois I believe. I had to laugh and explain to her we don't go out and get drunk at every convention, this was just one of those wild moments, but we do usually have a good time with each other. Oh and Jiffy was kind of making fun of me cause of the fact that I have a small crush on Luke, but don't have the nerve, courage, strength, or the heart to tell him. I mean he's 18, leaves in a whole other city, and not only that I don't think it's only like a physical attraction and nothing else. Oh well a girl can dream can't she. LoL. Not to mention when we did vespers after the Night of Excellence, oh for those don't know, umm vespers is what we call like the wrap up at the end of the day before some people head off to bed and usually we do a friendship circle and like we share something about a specific topic or somebody reads a story or poem or encouragement or a prayer. Okay so on this particular vespers we did a friendship circle and shared what have we liked about the convention so far and of course everybody goes around and tells there little tidbit or what not and then it gets around to this guy Travis from California and he says well my favorite thing was the ride home from the night of Excellence. Of course my little clique of people are like the only ones cracking up laughing and nearly hitting the floor in laughter at what he said, cause we all know why he said that plus the lost look on everybody else's face was funny as well. What they don't know is that earlier shortly after the evening of excellence we was standing out in the parking lot waiting for the bus to return and do another load of people to the hotel and well we were all acting goofy as who knows what and well then Jiffy decides to mess with Travis's head like started like flirting with him and what not. She would hold his hand and like rub on his arm, she went as far to tell him hey I got another room key if you want it and taking a picture sitting on his lap; you know to kind of mess with him. That night was hilarious. Oh lets not forget about the fact that Travis pretty much like staked her the rest of the week from there on. Which in my opinion the way he kind of stalks around in what not he seems like a creepy serial killer on the prowl or something. Uh more funny stuff is when Jiffy, Luke and I sat in Jiffy's room joking around, or when we had like the special banquet the one night and Jacob mad fun of this like annoying girl from North Carolina. She came up talking about well grow club is a club, well duh , so everybody start laughing at her, oh then she says ok well grow club is spelled G.R.O.W. uh naw you think. Jacob said oh wow people from North Carolina can really spell, which made us laugh even more. Ummm... Oh yea then there is the last vespers that I missed like Saturday and Cody and Winslow from North Carolina did it and mind you they have like that southern drawl or accent and so they started talking about some jacked up story of a man in Vietnam who got stabbed, shot, and grenades thrown at him and how he survived and then they mentioned like several times through the story of how he got stabbed, shot, and grenades thrown at him and that if he mad it through that then we can make through anything like our public speaking contest or like heights oh then they start talkin bout how like Moses didn't have a daddy figure and still did stuff and crap. I'm thinking wow as Mary and Jiffy told me about what happen, what in the heck was they thinking and then we just laughed. That was crazy.

Oh my Ex popped up yesterday, talking sweet nothings of how he misses me. Ha yea right, I don't think there is any going back. A couple of people I've talk to it about, say well go back with him, and what people don't understand is, that it's not that easy and that I have doubts about our relationship. Heck I had them before we broke up. You can't go into a relationship with doubts, cautiousness maybe, but not doubts. It's just not right.

I'd like to give thanks to Starrryskye for the get well wishes and reading my crazy blogs and Roe for the same as well and for the health tip. I'm starting to feel really better, but I think I'll pick up one of those pots for next time. Well TTyL.

Enjoy!!! v(^_^)v

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Almost Well

2008-11-21T22:13:25-05:00

Yep, so I'm almost better, just still little irritation in my throat and my nose is either stuffy or runny, but more stuffy now a days. lol.

The trip was pretty fun; we left like at 3 or 4 in the morning Wednesday. When we finally got there we checked in and what not and we found out who was in out room, which luckily it was only three people in my room including myself. I had this girl named Kerri and this other girl named Sara. Unfortunately my friend Jiffy that I went with wasn't in my room, but she stayed down the hall and she had only three people in her room including her. A girl named Mary and another girl named Tracie. The first night we did get to know you games and also Sara's cousin came and supposedly came and didn't have some where to stay because of some crap, so Sara asked me if she could stay in our room, which I wanted to say no, but then I thought that would be harsh, so I said sure, whatever. With that answer I decided to stay the night in Jiffy's room. Thank goodness she ended up with a bed to herself.lol.

The next morning (Thursday) began with me getting up and going back to my room and getting dress to go to the New England Air Museum. Oh I love how my roommate Sara made a comment about me opening up a can of Monster energy drink for breakfast and then another one by her again when we got on the bus. She said that's not really healthy, I had coffee cake, cause she brought it with her, but yeah she said that while we we're in our room and then as Jiffy and I was boarding the bus, she says that's her breakfast, I had coffee cake. Who cares honestly! Later that day we did community service at the school for the deaf, by sanitizing various things in the gym and so forth. We had a workshop that evening, which was a snooze fest. It was about mediation. We had a pizza party and then a costume party. The theme was the 60's, which if you would have seen those costumes, you would have died laughing. I wore a poodle skirt and blouse, but there was some other people who was adorn as hippies, go-go's, and nerds. The girl from California was hippie and won the costume party, but the thing that got me is this girl is like close to 6ft and her hair came like all the way down to her calves practically.

Friday we had to get up at the ass crack of down and I mean ass crack of dawn to take pictures and practice drill and then perform it. We had like workshop later that afternoon. We had a special dinner to go to, which a nice handful of us was late to. After the dinner we had an Evening of Excellence. It was pretty good. It was basically a showcase of talent from all over. I had a few friends in it, which is really amazing to watch people you know perform. My one friend played the piano and then my other friends did a sign a song together. It was some other stuff that stood out to.

Saturday We didn't do much we had a workshop in the evening that I missed cause I went out to lunch. We did a knowledge bowl, which is like team jeopardy. My team one. Ha. Then later we had a banquet and that was okay, my table was just me and my little clique which consist of Jiffy, Luke, Maggie, Aaron, Qiana, and Jacob, (they left earlier) and me.
And of course with only a few people at our table we kind of stuck out and of course our laughing was little to loud maybe. lol.

Sunday we headed home, but not before Jiffy and her parents went to mass. I didn't go in with them, I just sat in the car and I hope that her parents weren't offended, but I just wasn't comfortable.

Well sorry to cut short, but I got to go study before tomorrow and it gets late. TTyL. I'll feel in more goofy details and a bit more to the story tomorrow

Enjoy!!

I have Returned

2008-11-18T20:08:26-05:00

Yep, so I'm back from my trip and theres good news and bad news; Good news is while I was away, my mom actually found my wallet, but the bad news is I'm sick now. I feel so crappy, you just would not believe. The good thing is my daddy who love dearly, made me soup the other day. Well sorry to cut short I just don't have the focus and the energy to write, so I'm going to leave a song dedicated to my daddy. (^_^). Enjoy. TTyL.

Trip Away

2008-11-10T12:19:54-05:00

So I'm all packed except for like a shirt or two, but I am all ready to go. I am so excited about this trip that I feel like I'm going to bust at the seems. Sure I have no clue what's in Conneticut and really didn't have any desire to go at first, but I'm really open minded about this trip, besides I like some of my trips that don't included the headache of family. Tomrrow I'll meet with my friend Jiffy who I'm going with and talked me into going. Well I'm going to go cause I'm going to try and tie up any loose ends before I leave. Well TTyL.

Still Pissed!!

2008-11-07T11:04:12-05:00

Yeah I'm still a bit pissed about yesterday, but talking to my best friend Rina last night made it better. I'm going to go get another school ID and then an ATM card. I have to wait a couple of days for them to send me a new debit card, but it's okay, I'm just happy there wasn't more money in the wallet.

I know the store clerk wasn't any help when I went back to the store where I reloaded my card. The one lady said no no one turned anything in and then I asked the guy and he says he really doesn't remember me, which I'm thinking like it wasn't to long ago I was here, but I digress and he said that no one turned anything in.(So much for good samaritans) There is no where else I could have lost it cause that was the last place I got out of the car and used my wallet, cause after that me and my mom went to go get my brother and back to the house and we've tore up everything here and it's not here, cause I didn't go far in my house I went straight to my room and put my stuff on my bed.

Well anyway, life goes on and I just have to learn from this, make sure that my wallet is really in my back pocket or purse. Now I pick up the pieces and fix what I can and keep going. Still got a stupid headace, but I'm not going to take anymore pills i'm just going to try and suck it up, cause there obviously not working. Well g2g, so TTyL.

Pissed!!!!

2008-11-06T20:18:57-05:00

Yeah, so if you can't tell by the title I'm pissed. I lost my wallet today, shortly after going to the bank and making a deposit and then going to refill my debit card. Some stranger now has my wallet that contained almost $35-40, my debit card that I just reloaded, my ATM card, my two ID's which is my military ID and my school ID. I'm like not only completely and utterly pissed about the wallet missing because there is no doubt that I lost the whole wallet after I refilled my card, cause I never got out of the car from that point on, until I was home. I'm not only pissed about that, but I'm also pissed that my head is pounding. I took Ibprophfen and it's not working. I mean I took three 325mg pills. I don't understand why it isn't working. Well g2g sulk in my stupidity of losing my wallet and my heads never ending pounding. Going to grab something to eat and just go to bed.

Sick

2008-11-03T13:53:06-05:00

My unrequited, secret love "J" is really sick and will be going to the doctor tomorrow to find out what's wrong. He said that he was coughing a bit of blood, having a hard time breathing, and that he pulled a muscle. I really hope he's okay, I mean where would I be without the person I think truly makes my heart sing.

Yep so I put some songs on here that remind me of him or me and him together.

Breathless, really reminds me of how I feel about me and him.

Enjoy. TTyL

Tattoo (^_^)

2008-11-01T19:41:46-04:00

Yes, you read the title corretly.Tattoo. I don't have any tattoos and I've been wanting to get one for a long time now. I would have gotten one by now, but I didn't want just any tattoo. I figured this is going to be on my body and permanent, then I want it to memorable, so I don't want to just pick from one of the pictures they have in the tattoo parlors or whatever, oh nooo, I want mine to be unique and well thought out. Hey it's permanent and I'm probablly going to spend quite a bit of money on it, so why not. I've been having a hard time drawing exactly what I want on paper, so I sought outside help. I'm going to commission an artist to take my ideas and turn it into a work of art that will be later inked onto my lovely body. It's going to be about 5x7 give or take and it's going to be my favorite flower the stargazing lilly with five petals in reference to my nieces and nephews with my my other favorite, a butterfly perched on top of it. I also wanted 2 banners on it some where. 1 for my full name and the other to have the words Army Brat or the initials. I hope it turns out gorgeus. I'm paying her 70 bucks to do it. Half as a down payment and the other half upon my satisfication of the work. Which I think isn't to bad. I'm supporting an artist, which I don't mind doing because I love the arts, she'll have another piece for her porfolio and I'll have a tattoo I'll be happy with. I am so excited. I can't wait. Well it's fun talking again and of course TTyL.

General

2008-11-01T14:03:37-04:00

Yep, so everythings going pretty good. I'm so excited about going to Conneticut; Jiffy and me are going to have so much fun. I just need to make sure I'm current on my class work and what not.

I know I'm a little ticked cause the computer is running a bit slow thanks to my brother and my mothers ignorant disbelief. I'm like what doesn't she understand about him downloading a ton of songs thats slowing the computer down or the fact that he downloads porn which, mind you can really mess up your computer. Oh no my mother doesn't believe any of the computer slowing down has anything to do with my brother. Oh and you know what else I love is the fact he got all huffy about me taking the broom out of his room and mind you it's not like I was all deep in room scavenger hunting or anything. I didn't even step one foot in his room, in fact the broom and dust pan was right there by the door. He all like what are you doing in my room, I'm like oh yeah I'm here to steal stuff. Ha. He like well I wish you would ask before going into my room. I'm like just be quiet cause it's not even that deep, so then he goes and call me fat or whatever, which I'm so over hearing cause it's stupid. I know that I could afford to loose a bit of weight, but for you to call me fat cause your thin as a tooth pick is stupid. Just cause your that thin doesn't you get to look down on everyone else that's not like you, yea so I'm mad cause I tell him I'm a bit fat, but I do a whole lot more around this house then he does and I'm pretty sure I'm doing a whole lot more with my life as well. I have never met a person, so unaware. I mean how does he think he's able to wash his dumb clothes. Hmmm could it be the laudry detergent I buy occasionally or lets talk about how he never washes dishes or he has the nerve to try and talk about my cooking when everytime I cook he eats it no problem. I also add that I'm a really good cook. Anybody whose anybody knows I can cook. Heck I came up with combining two good loves, cheesecake & cherry pie in one for the state fair culinary showcase, which I was so close to placing in the top three. Well I need to get going, but love our talks and TTyL.

Enjoyable Weekend

2008-10-28T13:05:13-04:00

Okay so I have to write this blog again, because it just disappeared somewhere.

My weekend was fun. Me and my friends pretty much laughed the whole weekend, even though the hotel was kind of crappy. We laughed even more when me and Beliemo had to much to drink.lol. Beliemo, Jiffy, her boyfriend, his brother and I all hung out Friday night. Me and Beliemo also did a whole bottle of vodka straight between the two of us. I'll try and put pics up later cuz yea I can't seem to upload right now.

Here's a pic from me and Beliemo from this past weekend. More pics later.

Personalized Glitter Graphics

I'm excited it's going to be snowing soon here. YaY! (^_^)v

Oh yea my brother tells me some crap about how he didn't mean what he said last time. I was thinking that I can't believe that some one whould let theirselves lose that much control that they would say things they would regret. I guess it doen't matter how old you are, if you let your emotions and attitude control you, your still nothing but a child.

Well g2g do some homework and studying before I go to the mall tonight. TTyL

Well, up until now

2008-10-20T21:47:10-04:00

Okay, so my day was going just fine right, and well then here comes my brother saying stupid crap out his butt.

It starts like this, well my mom has a HD flat screen in the living room that she always watches. Well we have cable, but it's basic, so you don't get the whole HD effect unless like you have the cable box as well. Okay so then my brother comes over here talking about how for another three dollars on our monthly bill we can get it and that my brother and I should pay for it. I'm like okay that's fine and dandy, but wouldn't it be nice if the whole family or the ones that live in this house at least (my brother, mother, and me) could all enjoy in that benefit. My brother and I don't have HD TVs, so we won't be able to view HD channels. He started talking about how I'm selfish cause I won't get something like that for my mother to watch. I have no problem with getting it, it's just I would like it also, so why wouldn't I want the whole family to reap from it instead just one even if it's my mother. Then he comes talking about well would you rather wanna pay $300 month in rent or the $3 for the cable. I got pissed cause I do give money to my mother every month. I might not give her $300, but I give her a hundred here or a few dollars for gas here or I'll buy stuff for the house, so she doesn't have to, or we split cost on it. My brother that lives here doesn't do that. Not to mention all the cleaning I'm always doing. I wash dishes, sweep, and all kinds of other crap around here, so I don't appreciate my brother coming in here running his mouth about something he knows nothing about. I also don't like the fact he tells me to stay in a fucking childs place and told me I'm nothing but a child and all this other stuff. Which at this point I'm beyond pissed cause he's talking all this crap and my mom is just sitting here and stuff. I believe myself as aspiring young women who dreams and works hard for the future. I am almost 21 years old. I don't know where he gets I'm a child, I'm far from it. Even though I don't think years are what make you an adult, I still think that the things I have triumphed over, I work through and accomplish, should well enough get me the title of adult or atleast young adult. I don't know he just really pissed me off. Then he says well even though we're arguing now, you know we going to be cool in no time, I told him no this is diffrent. I probally won't talk to him for awhile and he must not know, but I can be really stubborn when it comes time for it and this is one of them. I don't want to talk to him for awhile. I mean who does he think is coming in here disrepecting me like I'm nothing. Pfft. He can foreget talking for awhile.

What my family and sometimes my friends sometimes fail to understand is that I have so many dreams and thoughts that flutter through my head, heart, and soul, that I won't more anything to come true; it's just sometimes things happen you have to deter from those dreams and hope that you can come back to them. My dreams are bigger than words can explain. Everything I do, I do for my future. People just don't get me. I won't nothing more to just wake up and prove to everybody that I am somebody and this empty hole I feel somedays will be filled with so much fulfillment, that I would be able to share with the one's who need help to achieve their own dreams or the ones who never gave up on me. Cause it seems like somedays emotionally are worst than others. Somedays I'm so happy I think I could fly, or okay to a point of a surviving, and other days I just so bad that I don't even know what to do with myself, but I try and cope with whatever is in front of me. Like a butterfly I wish to be among the trees and flowers and hopefully I'll be at a point of elighntment were it will feel like that.

Well g2g TTyL.

I laid more music for you to enjoy.

Wow, so long

2008-10-20T13:56:12-04:00

Wow it's been so long since I've written and I've come to say that I have not foregot about you my friend.

My life is okay, I failed my spanish test, but on the up side I got a B on my psych test.

I hung out with my bestie Rina this weekend and we ate lunch at an authentic Japanese resturant, which was really good. We had oudon.

Well I'm sorry to do this to you, but I have to cute this short, cuz I have to get some work done, but I'll will be back later, to write more. TTyL.

Oh I added a little music

Shitty!!

2008-09-20T18:34:28-04:00

Okay so my life right now is like nothing but a pile of shit! Nothing is going right and everythings a mess. I have so much on my plate that I'm stressed out and sick. I've had a cold a sinus cold and last night I had the pleasure of a stomach virus and a brutal migrane from my sinus cold.

Let's beging with the fact that my mom is being a complete ass and treating me like a step-child. Which is actually kind of typical of her, but she's also treating me like a fucking kid that I'm not. I'm the constant checking up on me, the retarted rhetorical questions, the constant self attitude and who knows what else. She's always raising her voice and cussing about something and it's usually over something stupid. Like she claimed that my sort of huff and puff in the car when I picked up a cd was a form of an attitude she " threaten" to take me back to the house and crap. I only huffed and puffed cause I thought it was messed up that a disk someone else had lent her was on the floor and had stuff on the back of it. Mind you ladies and gents that I didn't do it loud and forcefully, more like a ho-hum effect.

On to the other list of crap I have on my plate

~ Studying for Spanish- which is estudio para de espanol in spanish (^_^)v
~ Studying for Psych- which I've already missed 3 assignments and a test
~ Studying/ Preparing for my ambassdor test- which I haven't really begun to do
~ Trying to get everybody reigned in for the ambassdors contest
~ And just a load of other shit

Now the other crap that's bugging me is the fact that I have no insurance right now, cause my mom failed to heed the letter that was sent by her job stating they need confirmation that I am currently enrolled in school to stay on her insurance. Which I can't figure out why I've been so sick, so that insurance would have came in handy right now to go see a doctor, even though some days worst than others like last night. I don't know why my health is so bad lately, I mean I definately know I'm a bit depressed, that one is a natural given, but I think all the stress of everything is really taking my health down.

Oh and about my last blog basically I sent him home as excited/horny as he came over here and we haven't been talking since. He really didn't know what to consider us and didn't really offer anything, so I sent him home.

Well I'm off to figure some things out. TTyL. Much love and support from those who read would be greatly appreciated.

Climaxx

2008-08-29T23:52:13-04:00

Well yes today was quite interesting and I guess I'm just going to have to tell you tomorrow about what happen, cause I'm just to tired to type.

Well TTyL.