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A little more rested

Well I'm a little more rested, now that I slept like hours on end, but yea I'm up now and my friend just prung some crazy news on me.

She supposely is going to move back in with her grandmother, cause her aunt supposedly talked to her grandmother and supposedly things are suppose to be different. I told her okay, do what ever you want to do, but I hope she knows now I don't see her the same way, and it's not even cause of her moving out, but it's just the several incidents before this, that makes me kind of think twice of how I view her as a person. People have to understand that I'm a little hypercritical (sp?) of my friends. I mean I've learned to except them for them, cause they've done so for me, but I also know that every last one of my friends can be something trully great. I know deep down inside of me that each one them have dreams as I do and that every last one of them have lots of goals and that they can achieve them and anything else if they just try and if they could see the potential I see. Whatever, all I know is she wants to move out now and she also thinks I'm mad at her cause I really wasn't holding a conversation. Well I really don't know what to say, she's 19 she make her own decisions and if this is what she wants, then go a head, but hope she knows what she's getting herself into. I mean she just moved in here like a month ago and she's barely here and like now she wants to move back out to where she just came from, I mean what does that say about me. I'm not particularly mad at her just dissapointed. I really thought highly of her and now it's completely different. I just want her to know I don't mind hanging out or what not and still hope she comes to the club meetings, but if something is to go wrong this time, I can't be there for her, to pick her back up. This time around I'm not going to be there to help her get up and dust it off, she's going to be on her own, this time when she falls she's going to have to learn a lesson, a hard lesson that I hope she picks up on really quickly. Well TTyL. I gotta grap some more ZZzz's and some ibprophen (sp?) until it's time to go help my aunt.