here's the thing. I feel like total shit, I'm sort of fighting with my best friend cause she's always telling me to think positive but that shit doesn't work and it feels like she's correcting me and it sucks so i got kindof mad and i feel bad but i feel like i'm right too, because she knows damn well it's not that easy and she knows its not helping too. and i'm always nice to her and now i wasnt but shes fragile and fucking hell why do i make a mess of things.
i have these pretty imporant tests next week and i haven't done shit about my math eventhough my score so far is like 20 percent, so thats just great. i kindof like this guy who prob doesn't like me, my ex seems to make attempts to get back together, and another guy seems to like me and i like him too but its all so weird and i just really want to puke or sleep or lock myself in a dark tiny room or cut or whatever.
i'm such a mess right now, im sorry, ill go. i promise not to do anything stupid. bye