Here I have something to remember.  I forgive myself for searching for myself. Something I felt and knew when I had taken a many hawaiian baby woodrose seeds.  I forgive myself for allowing myself to think that I need anything outside of myself. I forgive myself for allowing my mind to not take my self forgiveness seriously as the only life source until freedom. I forgive myself for allowing myself to make myself honest according to my knowledge. This thing I need to remind myself of.  I forgive myself for thinking there are answers! I forgive myself for thinking my answers are in my past! I forgive myself for having enthusiasm. I forgive myself for building momentum in self forgiveness.  I forgive myself for defining myself by my words. I forgive myself for every knowing the meaning of words. I forgive myself for creating my hole. All of these pursuits, these wants and these gains in perspective with this. I forgive myself for wanting, for pursuing. I forgive myself for allowing myself to think that I can gain. I am here in and as oneness and equality.

I am.  As I am. Nothing more. Nothing less. Here is here. Now is now. Balance is now. Regardless of your life doings or your life standings you are... it makes no difference. Consciousness.. I forgive myself for allowing myself to see consciousness in a positive light. I forgive myself for dividing things. well Awareness soup, reinventing itself and then self destructing. Inflating and then deflating.  Inflating and then staying inflated. It does not matter, it makes no difference.

Your mind is.  Your thoughts are.  You can start and stop them if you like.  You are, either way.

Here in lies your peace. Here in lies your rest.

Stop searching. Stop reading. But then again keep on going. It does not matter. The outcome is different, the outcome is the same.  No worry, it is and you are. I am. Yet I am not.

Words don't make sense. I forgive myself for allowing myself to remove from myself the importance of words. I forgive myself for placing importance in words.