I think the title seems to explaine it all really, i dont think anyone seems to understand me no more, the things i want i never ever get infact i get complete fucking opposite!!!! i am so so so fed up with life right now all i ever wanted was happiness but im not allowed it,Im fucking sick to the back teeth of walking on egg shells trying to fucking please very other person except myself, am i such a bad person that i deserve nothing but fucking misery, hurt and pain i dont know why the fuck i let people talk me into styaing on this shit planet im such a fucking idiot!!! jsut having a rant and rave really before i explode having sum pretty disturbing thoughts and idea's right now and i cant seem to shit them infact i dont even i even want to. Its pretty simple my daughter died and i never want to replce her ever but i want a child to look after and care for my motherly instincts are rifre and the one person i love the one person i thought could make me happy hates me and is sick of me and doesnt seem to want to help make me happy but i dont think i could have ever been so wrong, im fucking sick fed up and sick of this life i either want my daughter back or im going to join her, no one in my life know how im feeling no one will know till its to late as none of them care so why should i care enough to let  them know


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