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I can't seem to find the words
to say just how I feel
The pain is ever growing
since they put you on that hill
I stop by to say I miss you
almost every day
I pray that God above will soon
take this hurt away
I can still see you lying there
among that crumpled heap
I wish that I could close my eyes
and this memory delete
It haunts me every waking hour
and in every wink of sleep
Ever losing grip on sanity
no longer mine to keep
I would give most anything
if I could rewrite history
Cause in my heart I know that you
should be here instead of me
In my cell, my private Hell
locked inside my head
If I hadn't had too much to drink
then you would not be dead
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Posted by Soul_trader on 2008-03-01 12:59:09 | Rating: | Views: 139
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man are you ok? dont blame yourself, you are never alone,Godbless
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Posted by bjm1
on 2008-03-01 13:04:35
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thankyou for your concern and comments bjm1 right now i am ok, to accept blame for a eprson dying is waht i feel a natural instinct to a parent, speaking only for myself, there is always the doubts, the what i i had doen this or done that diffrent, hence the poem if guilt and everyone knows guilt eats you up
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Posted by Soul_trader
on 2008-03-01 14:30:51
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A powerful poem. Maybe the wound inside your heart is still quite raw, but I hope in time it will heal. The deep scar remains, but the pain will be just a memory. Take care.
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Posted by Gwatlan
on 2008-03-02 18:20:29
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You got it in one gwatlan the wound is still deee and very raw, it has been 14 months and still time has not healed it but made the pain worse as each day cans i know that is one more day further away from the last day i saw my daughter, but i will give time a chance and try and carry on, thankyou for you thoughts and kind words
Soul
x
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Posted by Soul_trader
on 2008-03-03 06:33:27
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I am glad you are writing your emotions down hun.
I know how hard it is for you.
To put your emotions down in words is so much harder than hurting yourself but i am so proud of you.
You have come so far, bless you,xx
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Posted by bubblydi
on 2008-03-03 12:42:15
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thankyou hun and i am really trying my best to express myself in otherways than hurting myself and everyone on here including you is being a major supprt network thankyou for your kind words again
soul
x
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Posted by Soul_trader
on 2008-03-03 18:29:50
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