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So she broke up with him today. hah. She's pissing me off and i don't know why. She tells me she wants me to like her, yet i only get one word answers on msn. it looks so rude. and when i bring it up "sorry" haha.
for the past few days i've been thinking that i'm pretty much over her. Well, i feel that's pretty untrue when day after day i'm still hoping she'll tell me she's made a mistake. I live for the hope, and i run it over in my head how i should/would react. I say i wouldnt take her back. But i only feel that way because of what others' would think of me. That's pretty sad i guess. It's also pretty sad that i'm talking of it as if it's a possibility! haha
i guess it also bothers me that she's bothered about the guy splitting with her. i guess it's a natural reaction.
it's been almost a month since we split up. i've definitely progressed. i havn't cried in ages, although i did have to stop myself tonight.
I keep thinking to myself that what will make me amazingly happy would be that in 10 or so years, sarah will say to me that she did make a mistake, and that she'll never find somebody to replace me. I don't know what she's after. I gave her everything, and would have done anything for her. honestly, what more do people require in a partner. She lets guys treat her like s**t, and so they do. She'll struggle to find somebody genuine enough to treat her with respect, and that's a fact.
She slept with this bloke on a first date, classy. And what happened? he walked all over her, stopped returning her calls/texts. she was making all the effort, he picked and chose when he wanted to speak to her. Then he broke it off. Of course, he'd got exactly what he wanted and that was it.
I'm pretty sure a repeat will happen with the next guy she meets.
im going to stop talking to her on msn. I dont know why i do. i dont even like her. i resent her. It's like an addiction though. i cant help but talk to her, look for her, anything. its so crazy.
i've nothing to say to her anymore. i wish she wasn't so attractive. haha. I notice it more now that she's not mine. weird.
She is a bi**h though. gets someone else so soon, and then tells me about it step by step, and even talks me through the texts of the break up. seriously, why am i being told this? talk about rubbing salt into the wound.
this is a massive ramble. hah. I'm really tired too, and i've got college in the morning. sux2bme. hah.
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Posted by Soren on 2008-01-23 20:36:42 | Rating: | Views: 37
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