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I'm not really sure where i'm up to in these blogs. Sarah stopped seeing that bloke, i think i mentioned that in the last one, but just making sure. I spose that kinda makes me quite happy. She went to a burlesque party on thursday night though, and was dressed like a slut, ah classy. i guess that bothers me a little, but it's only natural but overall i feel great about stuff.
I came home on friday and thought it would be a pretty mundane evening, but in the end got a call from a friend, and lots of people were in town, so i figured it could be fun. There was a bit of a tricky situation going down insofar as my best friend, Ed, was going out with a girl (Jess) for a few weeks, but he didn't really get on with her, and split up via text (ouch) and they havn't seen eachother since. Since then, his friend, Rich, has started seeing her which Ed thinks is a bit out of order. Me rich and ed were heading into town to meet others, and Jess was also out tonight...so it was going to be interesting.
We went to a couple of bars first, and then headed to our usual pub/club, Walkabout. Ed and Jess had a chat about stuff, and emotions were running high. She was rowing at him and obviously very upset about how he treated things. Meanwhile, she basically competely ignored rich. Which was slightly weird. Anyway, after she had finished shouting at him, i had a chat with him to sort him out. He felt ok afterwards, i explained she was just bitter about things, and not to take it personally.
I had a private chat with her afterwards aswell, and explained Ed to her as i know him very well. I answered a lot of her questions she had about him that he wouldnt answer, which i feel justified his actions more. We had a heart to heart about relationships and stuff as i've quite a lot to talk about at the moment (LOL) and she's in a similar position insofar as she's still in love with her ex from 6 months ago. :( She's a nice girl, but she's not the girl for Ed, and i'm pleased he got out of things. Anyway we chatted for about 30 minutes and that's when it happened. She started kissing me. Now for several reasons this makes things really shit. Firstly, i felt i was betraying Ed by getting with his ex, and secondly it's unfair on Rich as he's kinda seeing her (she later said she was only seeing him to get at Ed, classy girl) But i didn't know how to react to her kissing me. I didn't want it, it just made things way too awkward, i stopped her 2 times, saying it wasnt a good idea blah blah but she just kept carrying on. I couldnt find it in my heart to stop straight away as i didn't want her to feel anymore rejected than she already did. So i went with it for a bit, and hated every second. In the end i found an excuse to leave. I didn't think anyone had seen, but another friend of mine caught me! ah, cover blown. I told Ed everything and explained it wasnt what i wanted and i didnt want to get at him or anything, but he just laughed saying he's glad he got rid of her, so that was ok. I felt awful for Rich who was supposed to be seeing her, and she didn't even speak to him, and started kissing me! Wow. All very complicated.
Things seem alright now, i just could really have done without her kissing me as it overcomplicates things so much. But oh well, i was pretty stuck and didn't want to hurt ANYBODY'S feelings. I guess that's all that matters, the intention...so nobody really has a right to be pissed off with me. Not that they are anyway, but meh.
Apart from that blip i had an amazing night. Lots of dancing, saw and spoke to lots of different people. Music was pretty gash, but i still had a good time.
I went to the casino saturday afternoon for the poker tournament. I played pretty well, but was also getting a sick run of good cards. I had AA, QQ, JJ twice, and some others. It's pretty rare to get so many big pairs in a short space of time. I played well, built up a decent stack, and then i had a JJ. i raised it up, and BB calls for 1/3 of his stack. flop comes 459. he checks, i put him all in, and he calls with 45. wtf? he called 1/3 of his chips preflop on a 45. Jesus, awful fish play...and of course it gets rewarded. The VERY next hand, i face a raise and i see 9T suited, a hand i love to play. I call, and get a pretty perfect flop of 89J. This gives me middle pair and open ended straight draw. Even if he has an overpair, i still have 16 outs, or 14 outs if he has QQ. that puts me AT LEAST a 56% favourite to win the hand, even if i'm behind. Even so, I figure my pair may be enough anyway if he's holding AK or something. Anyway, he pushes all in, and i call. He has QQ. fair enough, i'm still favourite, but yet again i don't hit anything, and i go out after 2 straight sick hands. Oh well. The JJ annoys me most, yet as people on the table said i couldnt have played my JJ any better...it's just how it goes.