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Bryan- denying my friendship hurts more than anything
One last glimmer of hope
lay within my heart
I begged for friendship-
once again I’m broke apart.
Of all the hurt I’ve felt
over the days before
this is just too intense-
it hurts so much more.
In just the past few days
I’ve lost a “boyfriend” I never had
and a friendship was ripped away
because Bryan feels so “bad.”
What about what I want?
You only want the easy way-
You’re scared of my forgiveness
and my love pushes you away.
I asked for your friendship
because it’s something I can take
but I want you to be happy Bryan
so I’ll give it up- for your sake.
But one day you’ll regret it-
even after being hurt I was still around
a friendship and love as pure as mine
is extremely hard to be found.
Bryan-
You don’t want my forgiveness- sorry you still have it.
You don’t want my love- sorry I still feel it.
You don’t want my friendship- I just want you to be happy.
This isn’t about what I can or can’t take- because I’m strong enough to handle it.
You just want the easy way out. You just gave up- knowing that I never would or wanted to.
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i loved this...
You don’t want my forgiveness- sorry you still have it
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Posted by LucyLu
on 2008-07-12 15:45:07
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Thank you. It's quite true. He may not want it but he still gets it.
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Posted by SmallAndFeisty
on 2008-07-12 16:21:51
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Why not just let a fuck up be a fuck up and fucking fuck up. Dont try to be my friend. I dont deserve that shit. I don't deserve your love. I honestly dont deserve anything from you. Just let me wallow away in my own misery. In my pain. All I need is the pain. Let me bask in my mistaken decisions and my issues and my bullshit. Let me fucking die in time. I'm sorry for sharing my pain with you. I wasnt trying to. I was just doing me.
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Posted by y_wait4_u
on 2008-07-12 16:37:20
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You may not feel like you deserve anything from me, I understand that. But I am saying that you deserve it. I am willing and wanting to give it to you... and whether I am your friend or not will not change how I feel. Deny me your friendship will hurt me, is killing me right now (thus I made the phone call short because I wanted to just cry right then, knowing you're giving up on me. On what I want) but it will not stop me from loving you. I always will. And it doesn't take back the fact that I have already forgiven you.
Don't you see that I want you to share your pain with me, and your happiness and any other feeling you may encounter in your lifetime. WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE YOU DON'T GIVE UP ON THEM- even when, or especially when, they hurt you. IF YOU TRULY LOVE SOMEONE THAT FEELING DOES NOT JUST GO AWAY. If it does then it was lust, not love. LOVE STAYS WITH YOU. It stays with me. I LOVE YOU. Got it? Get it? Good. Because nothing you say or do will change that. Ever. I told you I love you because I know it is real. And you know damn well it is too. Don't act like you don't. You want misery- FINE. FUCKING HAVE YOUR MISERY. But how does it feeling knowing that you're causing me misery upon doing it? Looks like we have to FUCKING MISERABLE PEOPLE! That's just wonderful.
One day though, you may not realize it now because often times we don't see it until it's long gone, you're going to wish you had kept me as a friend. Because I think you know that I have a huge heart and that no matter I stick by the people I love- even when they hurt me. GOD asks us to forgive our brothers that have wronged us. And I have. I have forgiven you- found peace with everything you've done- and I can still love you and still want to you be your friend. That isn't wrong- it's beautiful. But you'll see- one day- when you need that friend that will be there whenever, not just when it's convenient for them. Be there to help you and love you no matter what. I don't understand why you feel the need to push away a good thing- a good person. And one day- it may be years from now, I can assure you- you'll regret it... and even then it won't be too late. Because like I said before- and you know I don't lie- I will still love you. And I will still be there for you. Even then.
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Posted by SmallAndFeisty
on 2008-07-12 17:08:48
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