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Boys don't cry...
Why? why do people say that? why don't guys cry? or why do they lie about it? what's so bad about letting those tears roll down your cheek?

let me jam my foot in the door here. i'm a guy, and i remember the last time i cried. ok, admittedly, i don't cry very often. but its not like i dont cry at all. and each time i do, its the most human feeling i have ever felt.

i try hard to hold it back, i clench my fists and grit my teeth and tell myself to stop thinking about it. i shut the light off and sit on my bed. but the feeling overwhelms me and i feel hopeless in a moment of fuzzy haunting peace and then it happens.  my eyes shut tight, my head pointing towards the ceiling, a single tear drop escapes the corner of my right eye and inches down my cheek, cooling my warm face and making me shudder. not far behind, the left eye joins in the generosity and sends, what seems like a flood, through. soon enough, my spirit seems to be absolutely vulnerable as a small puddle forms on the floor below me.

it feels peacefull, in that moment of emptiness. that's when i lift my guitar off its stand and, in the darkness, let my fingers fall on it. its in that moment that i lose control over my fingers. they do what they want to. its as if the music that comes out is my soul weeping and recovering from the emotional flood that had just overcome me.

the music brings me back from a warped feeling. slowly i feel my fingers again and lead the music. and soon after that i feel better. i let the music heal me, fill me up entirely.

i set my guitar down and get up to wash my face. i dont look in the mirror, because i don't wish to see myself so weak, overcome by emotions. i am a guy after all. i am not supposed to break. i am not supposed to cry. i am supposed to be a pillar. am i not?

why can't i cry?
Posted by Slash on 2008-03-27 01:30:17 | Rating: n/a | Views: 181


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Posted by
Supporttheflock1995
on 2008-03-27 15:59:36
 
It's true I never say it, I'm a girl and see some guys cry not many though, your rallly brave admitting this on a national website! But.. any way good luck with life, I could use some right now, ( check out my blog and see what I mean)
-Tay
 
 

Posted by
angelwings
on 2008-03-28 08:32:37
 
I cant believe Im not the first one to comment on this :( I think its stupid to have this whole notion that guys dont or cant cry...its a very human emotion and guys are not made of hearts of stone. Besides when guys today can get facials done and waxing and I dont what other stupid (and creepy) stuff they get done...I mean really..even the thought is..bleh

What I mean is, if they can get manicures and pedicures, then why cant guys be allowed to feel the pain when things get really rough? Why do they need to bottle up their emotions just because there is this 'idea' that they are not supposed to show it?

Any guy who can admit that he cried is a real guy. I think guys can and do cry, and there is no big deal about it. Its just normal. If a guy admits it, it shows that he is confident about his masculinity and doesnt need to depend on such fickle things to preserve it.

I mean they get pedicures for God's sake!!Jeez...

Slash you arent weak to feel the emotions. People may depend on you, you are a pillar of strength for people, but you have your own feelings and emotions too. Dont let those get pent up just to be strong for others. Allow others to be a pillar for YOU when you need it...
 
 

Posted by
Slash
on 2008-03-28 16:28:40
 
thanks angel and tay for the comments.
pedicures and manicures are a different story man! :D

if you want to feel pretty, more power to ya. but that is something that is not in me! :D

totally agree with it being extremely funny!
 
 

Posted by
Long
on 2008-03-28 19:47:21
 
okies another blokes opinion :)

Nothing wrong with a good cry, natural reaction to pain, be it physical, spiritual or emotional. We are built to cry. We always feel better for whatever reason after a cry.

But we are tought as males the it's our place to be strong for others and somewhere along the line we've got the idea into our thick heads the crying is a sign of weakness, I'd assume that is related purely to physical pain (after all you can't afford the time to cry or have your vision blurred by tears when in a dangerous situation) but we have allowed it to travel over to other pains aswell and have lost the reality that showing how we really feel is a strength in itself.

Mani/pedicure! LOL. though I have to admit to useing a bit of face moisturiser sometimes as I have shockingly dry skin.
 
 

Posted by
Slash
on 2008-03-28 21:21:16
 
hey i need my moisturisir! otherwise i get all ashy and nasty lookin!
 
 

Posted by
brainstormer
on 2008-04-01 22:29:04
 
angelwings, must you always be first?:P

Dude, this came close to poetry as well...and a few days before I posted a poem of sorts of my own! Is that how you found mine?

I can picture this in a music video--very latin. Picture this.

You start out sitting on the edge of your bed in a dim white light...only the top of your head and bits of your arms draped over your guitar and legs can be seen...then you put your head in your hands for a moment while holding the guitar against your lap...the light gets brighter and turns blue...you take hold of the guitar and wait...the tears(simulated) strike the strings of the guitar like raindrops(sparce at first...then in rhythmic patterns)...pause...rain starts to fall(again simulated) around you both in light and sound...you begin to play a very powerful, emotional piece...and as you finish, your fingers become slower til you are striking notes as slow as the tears began to fall...drift into silence as the rain continues to fall around you...and we end with the puddle under your feet in the spotlight.

Huh?! HUH?!:P Pretty good, ay?!(weak French-Canadian Celine Dion impression)
 
 

Posted by
Slash
on 2008-04-01 23:08:50
 
i like that direction. maybe, if i ever get good at music and have to make a video, i'll call you to direct. sound good?

tear drops n the guitar! good vision!
 
 

Posted by
brainstormer
on 2008-04-05 01:27:27
 
Ill be expecting a call from you then?:P;) Oh, Im full of visions:P

I have a few guitars yet have not taken the innitiative to learn how to play...someday:P
 
 


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