Today and the last few days i have been studying the gospel of Matthew, and really trying to break down what it means to me. I am a member of a discipleship class at my church. in my personal time i am trying to read more about what Jesus did when the disciples walked with him. i am amazed at what Jesus was doing as he walked on earth in the flesh. It baffles me that even though they walked with our living savior in the flesh that they still had the same characteristics they did. [us humans, us humans] even though they seen his miracles, how he healed people and touched there lives, how he fed people, how he believed.

Im trying to build up my belief more in God. the Lord wants to take all my burdens, worries, cares, anxieties, away from me. so i dont have to be bothered by them. How awesome a gift is that! that he wouldnt want me to lose sleep over any of these minor milestones. That he loves me so much that he dosent even want me to be mindful of them. That he would much rather me in full submission to his awesome love.

Im in the middle right now of this. Learning and yearning for a passionate desire just to believe. just to believe!!!! to believe that he would want to do this for me. that  HE WANTS to do this for me. that i dont have to do it on my own. i think this society stresses the importance of independence [especially to women], but really God's word says, "come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest". Matthew 11:28 its not us who should have to do it, but God. i dont want to be wrapped up in independence. [hence Independence] there is that I that begins that word. i dont want to have to do it by myself. and his word says he dosent want me to. how great a gift from the Lord is that!

So right now im just trying to bask in the fact that he loves me and you sooo much, and all we have to do is just believe. just believe. what an awesome love that is.

you be blessed today.

love

above

all

things.