Okay, I lived in Pamlico for about 6 years and got to hating this place. mom left my stepdad and we packed our things to move to New Bern, where i was soo happy to go to.
I have alot of family in New Bern, so i got to see my favorite cousin, Lexis, alot. We got extremely close over the summer of '06(I was living in Bridgton ant the time) and i met a really good friend, whom lived down the street from me, Sabra.
by the time my 8th grade year came along, i was living in newbern and ready for school at GroverC. Middle
but.. when i got there, EVERYONE WAS THE SAME! trend whores and wannabes everywhere i looked.
i tried to smile, be myself, but then everytime i turned around i got snobby looks and snide comments like 'goth girl' and 'emo chic'
the first day of school, i walked into third period PE, my soon-to-be worst/best class of the year.
the air conditioner wasnt working proberly, so the lovley coaches let us sit around on the gym floor and talk. little did they know that i was the only one in there that didnt know anyone.
so i sat there. Timid and bored.
then coach Dykie(i have forgotten her name xD) introduced me to a girl just walking in, named anna, who was also new.
"Get to know each other. walk to the water fountain together. dance together, whatever", she joked.
a few minutes of me sitting alone pasted and Anna took Ms.Dykey's advise and sat next to me.
we stared talking some..
eventually, i started to open up to Anna. She was my new friend in this new strange environment.
i found her to be very awesome. she liked the same kind of music i did and had somewhat of a cleaned-up version of the styles i liked(clothing-wise).
she was my first friend there.
then i met other people that i liked and got to know. one in particular, Kyle. Kyle was my second-grade bf(long story, dont ask) and i met him again ^^
love that guy
then the second semester rolled around and my crippled, depressive mom informed me that we would be moving BACK to pamlico and in with my stepdad again.
i was devastated, but also excited to see my old friends again(the ones i had grown up with)
not like i had a choice..
i packed my things, and moved back after 8th grade ended and summer vacation started.
we moved into a single-wide trailor. the one next to the place we used to live in pamlico
i had changed my entire outlook on life during my stay in NewBern. My friends would be shocked at my new cheery attitude and new fondness of colors.
when school started...
i discovered that the 'group' had split up.
the group is what i called my little circle of friends in pamlico. Which consisted of Cristal, Chelsie, Sam, and Amber.
so.. Sam and cristal decided that they bother hated Chelsie with a passion and walked away.
a new kid, Niko, had joined the ranks of Chelsie and Amber. Adding an additional Taylor and Carly in the mix and you have thier new groups.
Amber, not having a problem with either Chelsie or Sam/Cristal, hung out with both(now she just hangs out with us)
ANYWAY.. drama happened that i didnt know about before i left and everything was turned upside-down.

i ahve made incredible friends and memories in New Bern. I'll never forget them.
I got a whole new outlook of life from my experiences.
i miss everything

theres still so much i quite get now that i'm back. its been an entire semester and a half..
i still don;t quite fit in anymore.
i feel as if i'm the awkward fat-girl again from the 6th grade

i'd say to move back to New Bern, but it wouldn't be the same.
just as its not the same here anymore.
because i've already missed alot.

I rarely talk to Anna or Kyle.
or anyone else from New Bern, for that matter.


i don't fit in anywhere anymore