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just got home from the movies with my sister..i had fun but on the way home i was in deep thought about them all..there are 3 that are in my life as of the moment..and uh 1 of them i could care less about cuz hes never serious...the other one confusin the hell outta me its like hello why did u do what u did didnt u tell me that u liked me didnt u say that u respected me didnt u say that u cared about my feelings and that u would never hurt..um hellllllooo do u kno ur actions today hurt me badly...i just dont get it its like do u not think about wat u say to me before you act with her...its weird its def not like you to do this well actually it is i mean the whole train ride your name was just running in my head..wai tnot ur name everything you do and all the times weve been together all of our shared moments and experiences went through my head and i wanted to laugh at times but i had to remind myself that i was on a train and people would stare at me like a maniac if i just randomly started laughin...and now im talkin to the other one and hes hurtin badly and i feel for him and yet he puts me b4 himself trying to make me feel comfortable and its so obvious but its like his words are so ughhh it almost makes me question them like is he serious does he actualoly mean that i wanna ask too but that would be wrong ! he wants to take a walk and when he said it it was almost as though he was asking me to come along but im only 15 i got a mother like a pyscho and its midnight there is no way that im leaving this house hes not responding i wonder what hes doing i still cant get over the fact that he said wooohoo when i told him that i liked him i think thats what made him think that it was okay for him to just dp what he did today he makes me think that hes 2faced sometimes like you tell me this about her but he obvioudly doesnt know that i will find out eveything and this one you recently just broke up with your girl its like helllllo shes head over heels literally for you and you just hopped right onto my train dont get me wrong i want you to stay and not leave like this one over here but i dnt get how you can easily switch lanes and get over your other girl like one of my friends warned me i hope im not his rebound girl wow she just replied to me too ugh shes late man its almost 1 am so much stuff on my mind man i feel like he makes me feel better but i cant be there for him because he hasnt let me in fully and its hard because i kno more than he thinks i do and i dont wanna say the wrong thing