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Have you ever noticed that people talk about what’s on their mind? I know that’s a bit on the nose, but hear me out. There is a girl at Maria’s office that has lost a good deal of weight. She talks about herself constantly. She can quote the number of calories in every food known to man. She manages to screw up the simplest task in the office- but that Twinkie isn’t about to put one over on her.
My mother talks about her granddaughter. Every single thing my little niece does seems to consume my mother’s thoughts. With Maria, it’s food. Or more importantly the lack there of. Maria’s idea of dieting is surviving the day on a piece of toast. Lynn talks about herself all the time. How great, beautiful, important, wonderful she is….and how every man alive wants her. Joey talks about his health, and how much he despises his wife. Mark is always telling me how smart he is and how the planet would cease to revolve if he didn‘t show up for work. For Tracy it’s how much she wishes she could find another job.
All of these people, and no matter how you try and change the subject, they always manage to bring it right back to what’s on their mind. You can learn a lot about a person just by listening to them. By watching what subject seems to consume their thoughts. You can tell what is important to them, you can tell what they spend the most time thinking about.
For me, it’s work and Joey. I went to a shower with Maria over the weekend. I tried very hard not to talk about work and not to talk about Joey. I swiftly found that I had nothing to say. I just sort of sat there and listened to Maria confess to me what she had eaten during the day.
A hoochie mama came in. There was this 6’2” woman that was every bit of 250 pounds. She had bleach blonde hair all teased out. She wore a black see-through top with a black bra. She looked like a transvestite a very large transvestite. That gave me some material for a moment or two.
I have become very one dimensional. It upsets me a little. Used to I was consumed with finding a new house and moving out. I was all about dreams and plans. When Joey got sick, his well-being took over. And work, well it’s all I do anymore. Lynn invited me out to dinner tonite. I couldn’t go- I had to work late. My life has become very hollow- all I do is work and worry about Joey. I feel empty, lost. Talking about what is honestly on my mind only depresses me. Wonder if I can train myself to think of something else.
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Posted by SimpleSugar on 2008-04-14 20:43:16 | Rating: | Views: 67
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I think it is a common thing. You aren't alone. I do this with a friend I talk to often. She will be talking about her and her life and then something relates to me and I will change it to myself. Then somehow it gets back to her and so on. Good luck on training yourself and let me know if it works out.
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Posted by sexykellitrent
on 2008-04-14 20:47:08
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