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My mother had blood work done today. She will find out the results in a couple of weeks. They are screening her for cancer to determine where she will have her surgery. She is handling it well. There is no cancer on her side of the family…and her doctor said she really doesn’t think it is cancer- she is just being cautious. But how many doctors would examine you and say “oh yeah, that’s cancer"? I am worried about her.
I went for allergy testing today. I am allergic to nearly everything. They stabbed me with 52 needles on my forearms then gave me 52 shots in my upper arms. I look like I have been attacked by a swarm of angry bees. I am pretty exhausted. The appointment took several hours and I had to make up the time this evening.
Tomorrow is Maria’s birthday. I left a gift bag for her under her desk. I wish there was something I could do to pull her out of her depression. She hardly talks anymore.
Joey hasn’t called me I haven‘t heard from him since Thursday. It is the same as always. He calls me and wants to meet me for sex. I give in. We have sex talk for awhile. Then he leaves. He will call me again that same evening just to talk for a little while. And then he will vanish. I wont hear from him until about a week later. I miss him. I wish we had a normal relationship. This pseudo love we have- it is never enough- he is never there when I need him.
I heard through the grapevine that the 2nd level boss told people he worries about me and feels sorry for me. He told them I have to carry such an unbelievable workload. I was shocked to hear that he had said that. I am very quiet at work. I haven’t complained to the powers that be that my workload is 2-3 times as much as everyone else’s. I figure they get the reports, they can read, complaining about it wont really change the numbers.
My boss called me this evening. He was very nice to me. He told me anytime I need to take a day I don’t have to clear it with him, just let him know I am going and go. Yeah, that is totally against the contract, but very sweet of him. He is a good boss, I have to admit. He told me if there was anything he could do to help me just to let him know. I have been trying really hard to keep all of the things swirling around in my life from affecting my work. I guess people around me can see a change. I do look like crap I have to admit. It’s going to get better…It has to.
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Posted by SimpleSugar on 2008-04-21 21:28:28 | Rating: | Views: 63
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