hang in there and keep blogging it really does help.

the words u speak mayaswell be my own-i SPEAK those words and ive SPOKEN those words and ive felt the pain and FEEL IT NOW.it seems impossible to think that ANYBODY could remotely f**kin understand the torture and conflict that goes on inside of u and the twsited mind u can sometimes find yourself tormented by.

all i can say is that im here if u wanna talk.my bulmia is BAD at the mo but all i know is that i absolutely 100% wanna rid myself of the ED life.ill listen to u and help if i can and if u want me to try to.

peace and love

ohh i understand you perfectly!!
undersant i feel every word which you wrote,but dont give up on life!
thats the thing with which i think we have to live with;)
sometimes i want to end it...i almost did...
but there are 2people...for which that would be something worse than for me...im still here only for them,im sure youve got people like that too in your life,just have to search for it...

I wish there were some magick words i could speak and you would be all better.... but there are none. No matter what i say on here its basically meaningless. I personally know that the only one who can help you is yourself. And thats what is so hard about getting better. Because we are our own worst enemies. Its a sad thing yet its a thing that no one understands except for the few of us who are there or have been there. Me personally right now am going on a month of no binging and purging. And im eating normal healthy meals. I still freak out now and again.... well thats a lie.... I still freak out a lot but i get over it. I refuse to be a slave to my eating disorder. Also i have not cut in like 3-4 weeks. What ever the last time i blogged about cutting was. That was my last episode.
But i may be fine right now. My problem is ill be fine for a few months at the most and then the eating disorder always seems to come back with a terrible vengance.

I really want you to know that if you do decide to stay on here talking i will be there for you. And if you opt out of blogging then i just hope that one day you find your way. I really hope nothing bad happened between your BF as by the blogg and you saying everyone had given up on you made it sound like something did go down. If that is the case then i am so sorry. That is acctually what set me off this last time. Me and my BF broke up and i found out that our whole relationship was a big lie. And i was the only one blinded to the real truth. It spun my life out of controll. And i just began getting it back in order again. So i know if there are problems with the one person you thought you could trust i know how bad it can shake your world up. Iv been there. And its not fun. I wish you well. I hope your doing ok.