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| Day 7 - I'm More Than a Number
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Grrrr - today was my first day of not losing at least SOMETHING when I got on the scale this morning. I was true to my calorie limits yesterday, and didn't do any late-night eating. I figured I'd at least see 1/2 a pound! Oh well, I've dropped 14 pounds so far, so that's something to celebrate.
What is it about my need for 'instant gratification' on the scale that can cause me to want to toss everything right out the window if I don't see a number I like? I'm amazed at how much of my emotional state is still tied to the number there. Because I didn't see proof of my good choices, it's almost as if my good choices were invalidated and not worth the effort. Eeeesh, how crazy is that?!? But, I still find those thoughts lingering. I guess that's more evidence of some of the mental reprogramming that needs to take place within me.
I know it's not going to happen all at once - even if I wish that it could!! And it was just ONE day. Egads, I need to keep my perspective! I was faithful to my good choices today - so I hope to see a difference on the scale tomorrow. I just want to be sure I don't become enslaved to my scale, ya know? When I step on it and wait for the number to register, it's almost like I'm awaiting some sort of judgment - SUCCESS or FAILURE!! And then I find myself living with that emotion all day.
I suppose the trick for me is to find the success in those moments I feel like the scale is calling me a failure. I can celebrate how far I've come, and that I'm continuing to make good, healthy choices when it comes to eating (and drinking!). And I also know that my body is adjusting to the weight loss, and shifting internally - which can cause odd readings on the scale as well.
Eh, it all sounds good - but it doesn't quite sink down to my heart, ya know? I sure hope tomorrow is a better day!! 
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14.0 pounds down, 57.5 to go!! 
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Posted by Shallandra on 2007-12-03 18:12:11 | Rating: | Views: 70
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ACK!! Once a week?? I don't think I have the discipline to do that! I have to know how I'm doing on a daily basis. Though I did give into the munchies tonight and have some chocolate, so maybe I should avoid the scale tomorrow. ;)
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Posted by Shallandra
on 2007-12-05 23:16:05
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