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"So Small"

NOTE: Song in italics belongs to Carrie Underwood
What you got if you ain't got love
The kind that you just want to give away
It's ok to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

*smile* Maybe this is why I'm not depressed anymore. After I realized back near the end of tenth grade, you get hurt. You get down. You don't need to stay down. It never matters how you fall. It only matters if and how you get up. Life punches you? Grin and backhand it! Don't let things get you down; you'll only dwell on negativity, which really makes life hard sometimes. I never thought I'd be the one telling other people to be positive about things. There was a time when everything just seemed so insane and horrible, but then I decided, "I don't need this. I don't have to waste my life by dwelling on this because I have so much I want to do. I'm living, and that's all that matters in the end. I have to make the most of it."

Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small

Something you believe is the end of the world, really isn't. Unless, you know, meteors and fire starts raining down from the sky. Then even all the positivity in the world can't help you much. *wink* If it's anything else, be strong. Like, for instance, I lost someone I called my daddy for a long time. He named me, he gave me my first two-wheel bike, and we used to ride through the streets of Cameron when I stayed with him. He treated me with such kindness and had high hopes for me. A couple years ago, he was really heavy into alcohol (long story). He ended up drinking to much, vomiting in his sleep, and drowning. I thought that it was it for me. That I could never, ever, EVER, be happy again. One day, there was this voice in my head. It told me that all he ever wanted for me is to be happy. I realized that, hey, I can do that! It took a while, but here I am. I'm happy, and I'm enjoying what life brings me. If I don't like it, then it happens. But I don't dwell. It's a waste of my heart.

It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide it swallows you whole
While you're sitting around thinking about what you can't change
And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And then you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh, it sure makes everything else seem
So small

Yeah, yeah

*smile* My favorite part. Love! Hey, all it takes is a little kindness. That's love too. It's expressed and categorized in many different ways (although categorizing it seems silly to me). Through a simple word or act, you can put a smile on someone's face. It's all that matters! When everything seems to be going wrong, having someone who loves/cares for you can keep you holding on, even when you want to let go. Back in tenth grade (yes, it was a heck of a year for me!), I really felt so depressed. I was so lost. I had people there backing me up, and at the end of that year, I was fine. I was really, horribly unsure of everything, if it was all worth it. I realized that yes, it is. It is so worth it. There is nothing more beautiful than life, especially with love in it. I can think of nothing more perfect. *smile* It's the most amazing, perfect thing in the world. Love, happiness, the feeling of belonging, smiling, laughing, just being able to enjoy whatever chances you have.

Hey, don't worry if something hurts you when you take a chance. Life is about risk. If you get hurt, just get back up! Hold your head high and smile, because you're still you, and that's amazing. If you end up with the 'big payout,' hey, that's beautiful. If you live a life with no risk, that's pretty dull. So go ahead, reach for the stars! Reach higher! Reach to infinity! You never know what you're going to get, and that's the best part. Remember, even if you fall or your arm gets tired from reaching, love is ALL you need!