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Someone to listen....

Now I know that I am not the brightest person in the world but like most people....I do the best that I do the best I can to survive...I try my best...it's not easy...Especially when you don't understand a lot of things. People is something that I could use a lesson on. I wish that I could know who to talk to...someone that would really listen you know?..My mom made it all but deffinate that she is in fact going to get a divorce. I feel used and...I don't know...mostly lost and alone.....very.....very alone.....very......Alone.....Talking to people I feel does no good because....noone ever listens.....I mean I sit down and try to talk to family........or a friend....and they start talking over me "well I've been through this" or "I've done that". I'm sorry but I don't really care.....not at the moment anyway it's not a contest to see who has been through the most pain that would be sick....all I need is an ear....

I can't tell you how many times I've played the ear to many different people....and you would think just one time someone.....ANYONE could be an ear for me....I just feel so alone.....I've said that to many times already I'm sorry. Generally I'm not one to complane but I feel like a doormat A LOTof times because well as an example. My sister calls me one night at 1:00 in the morning telling me "someone hacked my account and I need you to sign on as me and change my password" no please no sorry for waking you up or anything like that just "sign on as me and change my password" so I did....3:30 in the morning she calls back "lindsey what are you doing?"....."SLEEPING!" I reply angrily....."oh..." she says "Well i just wanted someone to talk to"....and I said "It's 3:00 in the morning!" well she started to cry trying to get me to talk to her out of pity....I said to her "GOODNIGHT!" and she hung up. What was she thinking?...I don't know but again no sorry for waing you up or ANYTHING of the sort....I don't even know....just like everyone else....forget I mentioned anything.....