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It's just one of those days.

Not much to do when you are sitting at home alone on a weekday, it gets pretty lonely brings a person to wanting to write I think. I really don't care if noone ever reads this but myself I write for the pure joy of writing. Yes I have dreams of someday being a famous writer and yes I do want people all over the world to read my words, but if only one person reads only one thing that I have written then thats ok with me, at least i will know that someone knew that I existed and someone even just one person knew that I had something to say and for a moment that person read my thoughts my feelings. No I don't want fame and fortune I don't want to go down in history having my name repeated for generations to come. I don't want the money and fame, like most people in this life what I want....is a simple life, and....if I can change the life of one person even by doing something as simple as making them smile through my writing then yay me! I did my job, my purpose was fulfilled.
You know, a lot of times in life I have made mistakes, I said things that would have been better left unsaid. I did things that I am not proud of. I have been stepped on hated and manipulated. Reemed out for NO REASON what so ever, all that these people could focus on was what I did wrong. They didn't care how I felt...they didn't care to hear what I had to say, nothing that I said or did mattered except for what I did wrong....WHY WONT ANYONE LISTEN TO ME! I have so much anger built up inside and it's all because of you....ALL of you. No I am not singling anyone out, I really can't everyone in my life has hurt me one way or another. That's not even what I am mad about though.....the fact is, you wont shut up for five minutes and let me talk....ALL of you....I try and explane myself and my actions but you don't give a damn. Just like the rest of the world you only care about yourself and how you feel. You wonder why I am so depressed, so angry take a look in the damn mirror there is your answer. No, it couldn't possibly be you...your perfect in every way a perfect Simeritan... and the part that gets me so...is that I still love you. After everything that you have done I STILL LOVE YOU! Proving to myself that I am weak....useless, Why should I hold on to something that hurts me so?....because I am Pathetic, weak...and you...you know it...and you love how it feels to have someone so dependent on you that you can run them to hell and back and they will still love you. You are sick and twisted...and you love it. Do not think that I don't know your game. I do....and if you wanna play, LETS PLAY.

~Lynny~